I LOVE MY BABY BANGAUS!

2010-03-10T14:29:00.003+08:00

I LOVE YOU & I'M MISSING YOU SO MUCH

Wait till i gonna hug you tight..

Been busy with work and school assignments lately.. -.-

If I CANT THAN I MUST!

2010-02-13T12:33:00.003+08:00

Happy sgt2 dapat main pasir on wed pat west coast!! Okay kental mcm kentang goreng kan?TAU! It was such a beautiful evening i had with budak gigi ni... Haha.. Okay name die AYIE..The fact that i like it when he treated me like his good darn friend! He understands me and make me laugh.. Us being so the merepek, main panjat2. Challenge who reach top of the web. Kan?Ntah la tak tau ape name die. The most stupidest thing we have done is play with the sand and make it like a cooking mama~~~ Nak ckp boring ke ape ckp..But all i know we had fun. "nasi lemak campor kari ikan?"how stupid can that be.. -.-

Watch sunset and after so headed back home.

Atleast i'm happy on the day itself. =) Thank you.

Duxton rooftop?CANT WAIT!!!yeah!!!Okay KENTAL!

2010-02-09T02:09:00.003+08:00

One of my artwork that determines who I AM.

2010-01-31T15:37:00.001+08:00

Rasa terikat, terlalu sayang, terlalu benci akan buat jiwa merana.

2010-01-24T03:44:00.002+08:00

Awak tak paham ke? Kalau tak paham kite explain.

Shessh. Promise jgn blng org okay?

Kite harap awk paham satu hari nanti.

Awak ni kan kental mcm kentang goreng!hahaha!!

Tak paham?

Wawa pon tak paham.

Ok bye.

Nak tdo!

Its amazing how some people can make

your day a whole lot better,

by just them talking to you.

SENYOM LAGI!

2010-01-23T01:23:00.003+08:00

The Students Above are Crazy!

Crapping so much.

Suke korg bully2?Termsk wawa skali kena..

ok wait. Promise to chill one day aye..

And Liz if he bully you once more jgn tarik aku plak..

And to Dop, sungguh tak baik ok?

Dop GILE!!haha! Boo!

FOR LIZ & MYSELF: Hi hi bye bye ~~~ blush!!!okay diam bye!

Tak paham kan? Takpe =)

2010-01-15T03:18:00.002+08:00

I look at him as a friend and i realise I LOVE him.
It kept beating strongly.
I wont want to push it to hard, if its meant to be, it'll happen.
ALLOW ME TO FALL IN LOVE
-wawa-

2010-01-13T00:22:00.002+08:00

~~She stands on her own~~

2010-01-11T02:14:00.003+08:00

~~~BE MATURED WILL YOU?~~~

2010-01-05T00:33:00.002+08:00

Tak terlafaz kata, mengungkap hiba. Gerhanalah seluruh semesta. Walaupun, kau telah tiada. Bersemarak cintamu selamanya....
Semoga Roh Allahyarham Md Rashidi Bin Haji Bahrawi (MAMA) dicucuri rahmat. AMIN.
Kehilangan Uztaz Rashidi seorang pemimpin seorang ayah amat memilukan sekali. Sesungguhnya Allah s.w.t lebih menyayanginya. Semoga segala amalannya diterima dan dibawah hingga ke akhirat. Al-Fatehah.

Peter Pan – Aceh (Ayah)
Dimana akan kucari
Aku menangis seorang diri
Hatiku selalu ingin bertemu
Untukmu aku bernyanyi

Untuk Aceh tercinta
Aku ingin bernyanyi
Walau air mata dipipiku
Aceh dengarkanlah
Aku ingin berjumpa
Walau hanya dalam mimpi

Lihatlah hari berganti
Namun tiada seindah dulu
Datanglah aku ingin bertemu
Denganmu aku bernyanyi

Ya ALLAH KUAT KAN SEMANGAT HAMBAMU MENEMPUH SEGALANYA. SUBHANALLAH.

2009-12-17T15:35:00.004+08:00

Another Ladies Night at Zirca/Rebel with Babygirl.

ELLWA's Night.

So much story to share... We head to Zirca after Dearest Bell end her work. Meet new friends. Zam were already in Rebel. I was so surprise when there's one particular person who i used to admire came with Zam.. Old story,but still have slight feelings..Thanks to Bell ok for choosing him to be your dance partner.. Shouldnt mention his name...HAHA!! "Club doh kalo stakat sentuh sikit2 tu biase la wei.." Haha...

Seriously both of our clothes sucks.Sungguh tak lawa sebab Bell baru alek work and i got no mood to dress up..LOL. So what~~Its Ellwa Night what.Haha.

Had vodka lime,vodka redbul,vodka orange and vodka raspberry ehk?ntah..haha. We were already high.. Tipsy~~~LOL~ Shouldnt share the embarassing part.However thanks to Zam for taking good care of us.. Not really high uh because we can still walk and dance and talked like normal..

Err i saw him but not him..Haix.How i ever wished i could dance with him again?Next week?Haha..LOL~~~Surprisingly Ellwa's saw Tam with the two girls (i forgot their names) Only the three of them. Didnt talk much with him uh.. Had some problems. Shessh~~~

Met a guy name Marcus...Blah blah blah..And another two eurasian guys..LOL.. Ellwa's being so friendly. Like finally,Bell get to dance and okay shut up..Only i knew what happen... There's something happen to me also. YUCKS!!!

And and let me say this, I'm cursing the person who go and vomit on my dress..FUCK!!haha!!okay tak ya kecoh..Can wash off.Plus i'm not going to ruin my day..=)

Not to forget, Azul was there too.=) HELLO!!!

I REALLY SHOULDN'T HAVE SAID GOODBYE.And now who's going to be my dance partner if that person ignore me?Only you have the guts to dance with me,stare and smile.SHUTSS~~~Dont tell me I got a crush towards him! AsS!

When will be the Next Ellwa's Night?Anyone want to accompany us?

2009-12-14T04:24:00.003+08:00

Grab my hand. Dance with me. Smile to me when i saw you starring at me. Will You?

First you were scared to hold me.

But you were brave enough to stare and hold my hands.

Coffee Lovers
by Aindréas Brennan

Silently,

He smiles to himself,

As he thinks of her,

Sitting alone in her kitchen,

Sipping coffee.

She thinks of him too,

But little does he know it.

Shamefully,

Both pass each other every day,

Without passing on the knowledge,

Of their inwardly turned love.

Time and time again it happens,

For who has the courage to say it first

,Or do they just enjoy,

Their secret love affair.

2009-12-13T19:44:00.002+08:00

Sorry for not updating much..Dont read if you guys dun feel like reading..So upsetting..LOL.Just my story.pictures will be uploaded soon.

=Last wed Ladies night was a blast!
=When to zirca/rebel with K.cka. =)
=Meet Tam,Taufiq there..
=Saw zam & arep. Plus Eugene too. Dance with them for awhile. Winx*
=How can that someone have the gut to grab my hand...
=Dance with him..Err..nothing should be mention let me just keep to myself..
=Enjoyed myself to the fullest on 9Dec! Laugh to the fullest wawa.
=Had some drink with them.
=Am not drunk ok.
=Back home and that superstar text me..Happy or what? Lame kan aku..biar uh.

On Fri, wen to clarke quay with Deno.
=Accompany him drink and chill..
=Full of crapping.=)
=Later den meet abang usop,k.ian,zul,bell and fai
=When to kent ridge park...
=Back home...
=I miss someone..haha!Maybe Bell tau sape kan..LOL!

TO BELL!!!APE LAGI!!KAU AND AKU JE KAN!!!ALAH SAYANG!!!!KITE DUE JE!!FAI GI FRI, ZUL NAK DDK BWH BLK SORG2 KAU DGN AKU LA!!!BABYGIRL JOM!!!!HAHA!!!I HOPE YOU WILL!!!

2009-12-08T04:53:00.002+08:00

HAVING SUCH AN EXUBERANT MOMENT THIS WEEK. =)

WHEN TO SHEESHA WITH K.IAN,ZUL & FAI..
couldnt count how many times Zul when to the gents..
It was hillarious..Hahaha.. One jug of beer and a jug of coke.
Back home with Nr5...
We have to walk back to city hall... KECOH GILE!!!
Reach Kla house at 4.30 am.
blah blah blah...

on sunday!Celebrated Mama's birthday with all the kaki's gereks.
Fai!!! Upload the photo soon aye...
Family gathering and Kaki's Gereks gathering..

SOMEONE!!!
At night, online in msn and i was so surprised when that someone approach me!!! Okay aku tau aku mcm terover happy.. Yes i'm so so happy!!!
I'd still remember when i was in sec four with another three of my bestfriends..we were so into four local male artist...
Okay aku tau kite byk berangan! Day dreaming ~~~ NIght dreaming`~~~
ShessH....
The four of us were so entusiastic if any one of the male artist put up a performance or act in a drama...
But now yang buat aku happy sangat sebab aku dapat chat dgn die!!! Yeah we talk about lots of stuff.. Cant say much uh... Aku ni kan pemalu...Kakak aku ingat aku gile senyom sorg2...hahah!!!!
BELL were so shocked and said "Awa kau mentel sia" because i webcam with him..Handsome perr!!!!!!!!!!Melts~~~~okay before aku mengarot lebih byk aku nak stop and tdo..YEAH AKU ADE NO DIE..HAHAH!! Stop it ok wawa!!! DIE ARTIST KAU NI LAIN.. =( shessh....

WEDNESDAY GONNA BE ANOTHER LADIES NIGHT..GOING ZIRCA AGAIN..
p/s:die tak online seh today..

2009-12-07T01:38:00.001+08:00

SINGLE LADIES

Up in the club, we just broke up

I’m doing my own little thing

You decided to dip but now you wanna trip

Cuz another brother noticed me

I’m up on him, he up on me dont pay him any attention

Cuz I cried my tears, for three good years

Ya can’t be mad at me.

ZIRCA PARTY!

2009-12-03T14:44:00.005+08:00

ZIRCA PARTY!

=IT WAS A BLAST!!!

=EVERYONE DRINK!

=2 bottles of Absoolute Vodka

=The only people who are still okay & NOT DRUNK is K.cka,Fai & ME!!

=Bell keep saying "wawa aku sayang kau!" She's so cute but irritating uh!!

=I remember scolding her. LOL!

=Zul fanatic oi!!haha!

=DANCE all the way with Azmi,Fai,K.ian,K.cka,Zul & Bell.

=I love his dance.=)

=Enjoy to the fullest.

IN THE PICTURES ABOVE ARE : WAWA,AZMI,TAUFIQ,K.IAN,BELL,K.CKA,FAI,ZUL

MORE PICTURES IN MY FB!=)

2009-12-02T00:16:00.003+08:00

SOMETHING WENT WRONG

I still love him, is that wrong
Everyday I try to be strong and let him go
But how do you let go of somebody who was your true love
I believe in one true love, one soul mate for eternity and forever in the next life
How do you survive this life, if he no longer loves you?
And the love you had has grown cold and dead on his side
And his heart no longer remembers you
And his soul and heart no longer beats for you but against.
If you have the cure I would like to know
How to stop time and see what went wrong
What happened to true love?
Why do I remember and he no longer cares
Everyday I can feel my heart slowly dying inside
Each memory slowly fading but lingers long enough to hurt
I wish it would go all away,
but I would have this empty feeling like I am missing apart of me
And with him, gone it feels like I have died
And half of me wish to join him
But the other half wants to move on and see if I am destined for another
Part of me is scared and another curious.How can true love be this cold.

Its time to let go....

2009-12-01T19:13:00.002+08:00

THEM & US

Time flies really fast...

K.cka daughter turns a month older yesterday..

How cute she is!!

With her big sympathy eyes..

I LOVE HER!

I LOVE THEM TOO..

They always there for me..

Change partner every week..

SUNGGUH CUTE!!

Meet you guys tomorrow and we sure going to enjoy our day!

PARTY!!

sorry if its not clear.....

2009-11-30T00:53:00.003+08:00

I LOVE CHATTING WITH BOTH OF THEM!!

2009-11-29T04:12:00.001+08:00

This phrase was taken in the movie "i'm not single" starring Awal Ashari & Farid Kamil

Yang pertama = Kau mesti sentiasa dekat dgn dia..walaupun kau rasa diri kau tak diperlukan.
Yang kedua = Kalau dia bohong kau sekalipun kau iya kan aja...sebab dia tak maksod nak bohong kau...mungkin dia nak jaga hati kau...
Yang ketiga = Kalau dia nak beli barang dapur,kau biarkan dia buat pilihan.
Yang keempat = Jangan tidur selagi belum pukul 3 pagi...Kerana dia akan mengigau..
Yang kelima = Jangan sekali-kali baca dairi dia..Sebab dia tak suka...Walaupun dia letak diari itu merata-rata tempat..
Yang keenam = Pastikan dia sambung belajar kerana itu yang dia nak...
Yang ketujuh = Jangan la kau marah kalau tiba-tiba dia letakkan sempadan dekat umah korang....
Yang kelapan = Jaga dia baik baik bila kau kahwin dgn dia nanti..please..

I dont know why i cried while watching this movie...Is it because i'm in the same situation?I'm confuse...All i remember saying "I'm happy if you are happy..."

Realiti yang Benar terjadi....

2009-11-27T04:48:00.003+08:00

Cinta sejati adalah ketika dia mencintai orang lain,dan kamu masih mampu tersenyum,sambil berkata: "Aku turut bahagia untukmu."

Kutujukan Buat Insan yang ku Panggil Abang tika waktu dahulu;

Hari ini aku bermimpi lagi,

Badan ku didakap lembut...

Angin semakin kuat menusuk dikalbu,tatkala aku menggigil kesejukkan, seolah-olah ada satu tangan memeluk erat tubuhku.

Aku terlena dalam pelukkan itu...tapi...setelah aku terjaga dari lenaku..Aku sedari bahawa itu hanya mimpi..

Ah...mimpi yang mengasyikkan..

Perlahan-lahan manik-manik jernih jatuh keluar dari kelopak mataku.

Rindukah aku padanya tika ini?Fikiran ku mengimbas kembali kenangan lalu...Seringkali aku didendangkan dengan kelunakkan suaranya ketika aku ingin tidur..Seringkali juga aku terlelap dalam dakapan mesranya apabila dia mengusap rambutku...

Dia bukan hanya seorang kekasih bagi diriku..Malahan dia ibarat Abang ku sendiri..

Abang yang aku beri sepenuh kasih sayangku kepadanya ...

"Abang..." Dia yang mengajar aku memanggilnya dengan panggilan itu...

Kini aku memanggilnya sekali lagi...

Tetapi hati yang berbicara namun lidah membisu tanpa suara...

"Abang...."sekali lagi ku cuba..Namun sepi yang hadir...

"Ayang sejuk...Ayang rindu Abang peluk Ayang... Ayang rindu dgr lagu yang Abang selalu nyanyikan untuk Ayang.." Manik-manik jernih mengalir dengan derasnya..

Tiba-tiba satu suara menerpa,lalu ia masuk ke corong telingaku..

"Usah...tinggal daku kekasih...Usah...Biar aku bersedih.."

"percintaan ini memang zalim..tak bermata tak berhati...seolah-olah kini.."

Ia terhenti begitu sahaja..

Tidak!!!Ilusi atau satu yang nyata?Aku kembali terlena apabila titisan airmata ku semakin berkurangan..

Lantas aku bermimpi sekali lagi..

"Ayang mari makan Sayang...Abang suapkan..Dia kan sakit.." Kerana itu cintaku semakin membara untuknnya..Ku dilayan dengan penuh kasih sayang..."Abang terima kasih..."

Kini sakit ku..Ku tanggung sendiri...

"Ayang jangan lupa makan obat ok?Nanti sakit kita tak boleh jumpa."

Sehingga kini apabila aku jatuh sakit..

Ku kuatkan diri untuk segalanya..Kerana..."Ayang janji makan obat..Nanti Abang bwk Ayang

keluar okay."

Sehingga tibanya saat perpisahan yang hadir tanpa diduga..

Apabila dia menyatakan "Sayang"...

Aku leka..kerana ia beerti "Abang akan pergi.."

Dan apabila aku menyatakan "Sayang"....

Dia lupa...bahawa hati ini terlalu menyintai...

"Abang tunggu...."

Suara ku bagai tersekat di anak tekak...

Dia berlalu...semakin lama semakin jauh dari penglihatanku...

"Abang tunggu...."

Dia menoleh untuk kali terakhir...

Dia hanya merenung redup kearah ku....Lalu kakinya melangkah pergi..

Tubuhku ditepuk lembut...

"Awa bangun...." Perlahan-lahan ku buka mata..

Melihat dunia yang sebenarnya..

"Dia benar-benar pergi meninggalkan aku..Tidak rindukah dia padaku?Hanya Allah s.w.t yang mengerti."

"Usah...tinggal daku kekasih..Usah biar aku bersedih..."

-TAMAT-

2009-11-27T04:33:00.002+08:00

MY BESTFRIENDS MY LOVER =)

=Though Dearest Bell couldnt make it, she still have thought asking them to wear Black coloured shirt wen they going to fetch me..

=It was an exuberant moment i could say.....

=Fai waited for me at campus one near TCC...

=Zul & Haiqal sit one place where i cant see them.How sweet they gave me a surprise..

=Off we go when K.Ian & Abang Usop arrived..

=Bising uh korg!!!naik lorry aje ketawe!!!ASS!!!

=So much to elaborate..I'm too shagged right now..Just reached home and its already 4.40am..

=When to Mustafa with K.Ian,Abang Usop,Zul,Fai....

=Crap so much..

=Today will be another euphoric outing..We going adventure with the kaki gereks..

=Hope everyone will turn up aye!!I miss them..

To: Udyn,Ady,Amiul Hafiz,Tafsiran & Reeyan sorry didnt get to reply your text..My ppd low..Never want to top it..Hahaha..

2009-11-26T02:32:00.002+08:00

RENUNGAN KATA PENGISIAN JIWA

Jika kamu memancing ikan, setelah ikan itu terlekat di mata kail hendaklah kamu mengambil terus ikan itu. Janganlah sesekali kamu lepaskan ia semula ke dalam air begitu sahaja kerana ia akan sakit oleh kerana bisanya ketajaman mata kailmu dan mungkin ia akan menderita selagi ia masih hidup…

Begitulah juga setelah kamu memberi banyak pengharapan kepada seseorang. Setelah ia mula menyayangimu hendaklah kamu menjaga hatinya. Janganlah sesekali kamu terus meninggalkannya begitu sahaja kerana dia akan terluka oleh kenangan bersamamu dan mungkin tidak dapat melupakan segalanya selagi dia mengingatimu…

Jika kamu menadah air biarlah berpada. Jangan terlalu mengharap pada takungannya dan janganlah menganggap ia begitu teguh. Cukuplah sekadar memenuhi keperluanmu. Kerana apabila sekali ia retak, tentu sukar untuk kamu menampalnya semula. Akhirnya ia dibuang sedangkan jika kamu cuba membaikinya, mungkin ia masih boleh digunakan lagi…

Begitu juga jika kamu memiliki seseorang terimalah seadanya. Janganlah kamu terlalu mengaguminya dan janganlah kamu menganggapnya begitu istimewa. Anggaplah dia manusia biasa. Apabila sekali dia melakukan kesilapan, bukan mudah bagi kamu untuk menerimanya. Akhirnya kamu kecewa dan meninggalkannya. Sedangkan jika kamu memaafkannya, boleh jadi hubungan kamu akan berterusan hingga ke akhirnya…

Jika kamu telah memiliki sepinggan nasi yang kamu pasti baik untuk dirimu. Mengenyangkan. Berkhasiat. Mengapa kamu berlengah dan cuba mencari makanan yang lain. Terlalu ingin mengejar kelazatan. Kelak, nasi itu akan basi dan kamu tidak boleh memakannya lagi. Kamu akan menyesal…

Begitu juga jika kamu telah bertemu dengan seorang insan yang kamu pasti membawa kebaikan kepada dirimu. Menyayangimu. Mengasihimu. Mengapa kamu berlengah dan cuba membandingkannya dengan yang lain? Terlalu mengejar kesempurnaan. Kelak, kamu akan kehilangannya apabila dia menjadi milik orang lain. Kamu juga yang akan menyesalinya……

2009-11-25T17:56:00.001+08:00

At times I may upset you, sometimes I'll make you mad, sometimes my words will wound you, at times I'll make you sad, but you'll NEVER find another girl that loves you more than me, I love you with my heart and soul... for all eternity

2009-11-25T00:04:00.002+08:00

He's lost the one girl who thought nothing was wrong with him.

~~~~~~~

Maybe he's doing the same thing as me... maybe he wants so bad to call me, but just won't because I haven't called him... then again, maybe I shouldn't fill myself with false hope that he might just be missing me like I'm missing him.

2009-11-23T23:02:00.003+08:00

=While I was holding on all you did was let go

=All I'm asking for is one night together. Just you and me. All alone. And if you can honestly say you don't feel anything for me after that night, I will finally let you go.

2009-11-22T13:45:00.007+08:00

Some of the PHOTOSHOOT pictures.There's more i upload it in FB. =)

THEME: "TWIN"

2009-11-19T19:06:00.002+08:00

To readers you may want to comment on what i've written.This is what I feel.It may sound bullshit.Nothing but only truth.Just feel free to comment and say something on my tagboard.

I knew i shouldn't be posting this.Give me a space for atleast once.Let this be the last time for me to share what I felt after a few months had past.I tried my very best to forget the past though many did gave me an advice telling me to treat it normally.Its difficult but nothing is impossible.Frankly, I do miss him. Yes Ayie if you read this piece of write up I just want to share with you like I always do.Even I never wish it would be the last, I have to face it.

Yes Ayie, you might forget everything so easily, she always there for you. Can i say she always been there for you but it wasnt the same as I who always there every second? I knew I never in the top list but i did make an effort to climb up and be in the list.

Yes Ayie, you thought me to call you abang. Did you thought her the same thing too? She might be your best student however I'm the first student who leave the mark in your heart and call you abang.

Yes Ayie, your only reasons for loving her maybe because of her smile. However did you realise that you fall for my smile too? And this smile never fade away when she(me) saw you? When her sweetest smile were made for you?

Yes Ayie, you make mistakes and the mistakes you make hurt my feelings. I fight over you I cried over what you've done. But did I do the same thing in return? To hurt you back..None.. I did nothing, its because I knew you will change.

Yes Ayie, you once called me sayang and in our message you spelled out the whole alphabets. S-A-Y-A-N-G.. Did you do the same thing to her to? She might thought that you treat her very well. She was wronged. You treated me so well before she came in.

Yes Ayie, you gave me a beautiful dress that cost so much. I returned them back to you and I wonder if you give it to her. Maybe the dress suit her better but you chose the colour that fits me best. Your mom bought me a very sweet green coloured cloth and I returned them back to you. I never get a chance to try it on but atleast I get to hold it for quite sometimes.

We cried together we laugh together,we even create a stupid lame jokes together..Have you ever notice how happy we were a few months back?Did she cry with you when you're down? Ayie the thing you should remember always is what you always do when i wanted to go to bed. I miss your hug,your smile.Time will tell when you realise back the big thing you loss in your life.

Yes Ayie, I had always love your family, your nephews & nieces. If I able to save everything back again, I will. My whole family misses you, your scandal misses you,your brother misses you and I am here missing you every moment.

I read it back in friendster,Its old but yet i still burst in tears.

Helo sayang!i noe i've hurt u alot of time..
but with our love,we manage to settle things out..
i just love u!and i noe u love me too..hahahaha..
u have been waiting this 4 a long time..
this is 4 u..

kau adalah gadis yang amat cantik
disini ada aku yang cinta padamu
aku sudah banyak melukakan hatimu
dan aku minta maaf..
let ppl witness this
AKU HANYA SAYANGKAN NURUL MUNAWWARAHKU BERJANJI TIDAK AKAN MENINGGALKANNYA BERSENDIRIAN..
KU SANGGOP BERKORBAN JIWA RAGA HANYA UNTUKNYA..
i will remind myself not to hurt u but i will love u even more..
more than u loves me!hahahaha..
u lose..muacks dear..i love u so much..
biar kite lalui peristiwe pahit manis bersame..
ku hanya cinta dan sayangkan mu..
Salam sayang,ayie....

2009-11-19T00:57:00.002+08:00

When OLD BANGAUS GANG REUNITE BACK!

=Miss the old times.

=Haiqal,Zul,Fai I LOVE THE HUG!!

=Crap so much!

=Haiqal cute pe kau bile kite main game bodoh tu!!!

=Kadang2 tempat Long John tu da mcm tempat kite kan?Kite bayar!!haha

=Bell so the mentel!

=Wawa step cute!

=Haiqal nak step abang2

=Zul BAPOK WANNA BE

=Fai the BULLY!

DONT FORGET SATURDAY OKAY!!!

Kick away BANGAUS GANG NOW KAKI GEREKS COME AHEAD!

2009-11-17T23:15:00.002+08:00

SUNDAY

=Stay at K.la house with Bell & Zul

=The three of us help each others with the house chores

=Fai came at 6p.m

=Watch Young & Dangerous

=Abang Chemong & Abang Man came at 7p.m

=The rest reached home at 7.30p.m

=Make a move at 9 .15 p.m

=Snap some pic using Fai cam..

-Bell (irritating)

-K.la (over)

-The rest mcm faham..haa

=Wait for Lina & Rein with his 125z

=After awhile Zul,Bell & Fai headed back home

=Still waiting for fir with his DRZ.Siap mcm perempuan!

=Wen to Kent Ridge Park

=Crapping and blah blah blah.

=On our way back to jurong Rein and Fir make so much noise at expressway.DA GILE!!!

=Chill for awhile at Yunan Park.

=Back Home at 2 a.m

=Zzzzzzz

=Thanks for another ice lemon tea =)

Monday

=Meet the rest at bugis

=Watch paranormal

-IT SUCKS!!such a waste of money..haa

=Eat chill and blah blah..

=HAPPY 21st Birthday LIZ!!!

=Smile*

ANOTHER OUTING?

SHESSH!!

done!

2009-11-15T11:46:00.002+08:00

Another sweet outing with Ana.Okay2 i shouldnt call him Ana, its An not Ana =) . To An thank you for the romantic outing i should say. We were having so much fun together. Awesome! When to Vivo and he bring me to Secret Recipe to have our dinner. It was hilllarious because both of us find a hard time pronuncing the word.

An you make me laugh!!! An chose a chicken cordon with orange juice for his drink and as usual i chose lasagne and Rasberry for my drink. We took our own sweet time and after having our main dish An already chose Rasberry Cheesecake for our desert. Sweet. Share the cake together, though i didnt eat cheesecakes but after tasting it, i'm kind of like it.

End our dinner and walk around for awhile at vivo. An love to leave wawa alone!!Haha..But he is so sweet okay..We head to keppels bay to chill. We manage to see the Star Cruise and imagine us in the ship. It was super big i didnt manage to snap a pic of it, because it was dark..Sheesh. A very quiet night. We crap alot and sing out every song in my phone. " Hitam putih hitam putih hitam merah" ape die?hahha.. An couldnt stop laughing when i asked him such question. It was suppose to be a JOKE!! You hurt my feelings uh An!haha..

He bring me to take roller coaster at J.E!!hahah..And An thanks for pressing level 11 when i already press level 12.Shouldnt be pressing level 3 for you!!HMPH!!!*peace*

I'm still so touch for what he did. There's too much for me to describe. All i can say it was an exuberant outing. I'm looking forward for another outing with him. Sweet couple uh? Haha..appreciate it alot An. You do look good.

=Romantic Dinner

=Sweet/quiet chilling place

=Sing together

=Light each other cigarette.(how gentleman he was)

=Talked about life,love etc.

=Snap some pic.

=Laugh out so loud.

=Roller Coaster.

p/s: FAI!!!BELL & ZUL & AKU & KAKI GEREKS RINDU KAU!!!!

=Had fun at K.la house.

=Illegal gambling..hahaha

=Bell & Zul sleep over at K.la house again!

=Every Sat it was a blast!

Toodles!

2009-11-13T00:24:00.003+08:00

=Done with assessments!!Mixed feelings HATE it and at the same time LOVE it..Nvm!! There's nothing for me to talk about...TOO MUCH PRESSURE!!However its HOLIDAY TIME!!

=Thanks Abang Man! You helped me so much..Send me to school though i was already late for assessments.Just pray i wont fail! Fetch me back from school..Yeah i owe you one...I'll treat you one day aye..When i'm rich..amin..hahah...

=ZUL BELL FAI thanks for being there every weekends to help me out with my work..I LOVE YOU GUYS!!

-Zul Nowadays you always been there for me..So much things we talk about..Sleep at K.la house and go pasar malam at night.Chill with Zharif...Gosh! I'm glad to have you as my friend.

-Bell there wont be a replacement for you..No one can ever take your place..Touch right?Haha..We should have a date and i promise to fetch you aye!!

-Fai you the one guy who walks with me without complaining.Thanks dude for the mcspicy..I'm gratified to have you too..

=Liz i'm sure gonna miss your STUPID GESTURE!!!Thanks for being there too..I LOVE YOU!!Dont worry too much about assessments aye!

=To all the NAFA students i mean first year NAFA students (my classmates especially) WE SHOULD WATCH THE GODFATHER AGAIN!!!And yes

- Faris please dont snore when you sleep beside me..AHAHAH!!!

- K.C i like your sleeping pose!

- Nhawfal you crazy dude!!!

- J.L a date uh?hahah!!!

- Rhys my 78% love...I wont hurt you anymore..LOL!

- Daryl i'm sure gonna miss your stupid jokes..

-Marrisse oh yeah my first friend in NAFA! =)

- Iman!!!!!! SMILE!!

-Ella STOP EATING!!hahaha

=Lina, Rain, Fir thanks for bringing me out and we were back home so so late..hahahah..Another Jurong Hill memories.. Fir, your bike is so high..and i had a hard time trying to get up and sit..Haha..Nice to meet you guys..See ya around aye!!!And yes thanks for the Ice lemon Tea. =)

=Zharif when will be our outing? 22nd ehk?so see ya soon.ya i knew that we contact each other everyday so can meet every time we want..But since you're busy with stuff and i'm busy too i guess 22nd might be a better day for us. =)

=Ana!!!please dont do guard duty this saturday!!no!!you promised to bring me out right..I dont know what the place called i cant recall but i knew its sweet..LOL!!!so text me and confirm with me..hee..

=Someone out there..Why do i have to bump on you just once only after i'm done with assessments?You smile..and yes you smile..Gosh...it will take too long for us to meet again..Nvm see ya around aye..I remember you calling my name...HAIYA!!!

=I Miss JURONG HILLS!!!I mean i miss him.Chewing gum..Its still there..

2009-11-06T17:41:00.003+08:00

I had an awesome day since yesterday and today!!!

=Liz is falling for someone =) YEAH!!! she were blushing all the way starting from Gong Bi class.. CHILL OK?? I'm still laughing sia..Thinking about your stupid reaction..HAA!!!SO CUTE!!!

=Zul!!!aku sayang kau sia!!!you fetch me weee!!!!!!!!We walk from little india till city hall...A SWEET FRIEND DATE!!!haa!!!crapping all the way till we dont even care about the time...Have to run with my stupid bag!!kecoh pe..Should have plan for another date aye!!!wee!!! ESPLANADE DOES CHANGE =)

=Zharif!!!!thanks for the toblerone and accompany me home..hAA!!!Bdk gileee!!!!!!!meet again soon aye!!!Umah dkt je...=) (Train memories LOL!) and we should go home together aye?

=Belle aku MISS KAU!!!Fai JUMPE AKU!!!aku tak kire ok!!!!

=ANA(an) Jadi tak sat ni?heee!!!

ASSIGNMENTS SUCKS BIG TIME!!!Shessh..

p/s: To the rest i'm sorry if i didnt spend my time with you guys/girls.=)

2009-10-31T04:10:00.003+08:00

This is just a random post. FRIENDS-CRUSH-LOVE I MISS THEM.

Ahmad Ashraf = Its been decades since i last met you....Secondary time..

Romeo = The name Juliet is still alive. How wonderful.

Wan = I used to like you but now i dont. People change. Sorry.

Hairul = When will be our next Labrador park Kekasih Gelapku.

An = ANA BELLA WARAH!!we missed our old conference.

Hafiz = Fiz i am still a friend of yours..

Fadzly = The memories left out.

Luke = Dude when will your exam going to end? Another stupid voice recording session. Hee.

Ky = Just chat with you we going to web again soon aye!

Amirul Hafiz = Gonna meet up soon right?

Izuwan = Wan, i cant wait later hee...=)

Hanif = I MISS YOU LOL!!!=)

Udyn = Nice Knowing You.

Tafsir = I like you as my friend aye..Thanks for accompany me do my drawing.

Iman = Cute sia!!Take photo again aye!

Azri = Bump into each other again?Haha..i still remember how liz get so mad and ask for your permission to scold you. and you always call me "WAWA!"

Stanley = My strong man..But he afraid of something and i'm afraid of something too.shh...Dont wish to say it out.Aha!

Firdaus = Thanks for the chewing gum and the outing i'm kind of missing you. Haix.Why did you have to go now?

Afiq = Old stories were left behind. I miss the moment we walked in the rain. Happily chatting! Remembering every smile of yours. The way you speak to me. How touch. Those time you hold my bag. We wore the same coloured clothes. Yeah overall i miss your smile. If we meet again one day just so you know this girl down here fall for you once. =) WARaFIQ

2009-10-31T03:37:00.001+08:00

A KISS IN THE RAIN

We step out of the car and into the streetYou can hear it hit softly, like the patter of little feet
It’s such a magical time, like sunset on the oceanWe’re caught in its spell, and we move in slow motion

I move in close, with my hands on her waistI take it slow, no rush, no haste
The rain slowly falls and the full moon shinesShe slides her arms around my neck, and says “your mine”

The rain picks up and it soaks our hairBut our eyes are focused, we have no cares
I whisper in her ear, “I love you my dear“You will always be smiling, you have no use for tears”

“I will love you forever, is my vow to you”“You are my heavenly dove, may it always be true”
She smiles at me, with joy and blissMy lips meet hers, and in the rain we kiss

The rain itself, dances all aroundAs I kiss my sweetheart, without a sound
The rain glides through the air and I hold her tightIt’s like the angels are crying, such a beautiful sight

Her tongue touches mine and its ecstasyA kiss in the rain sets my emotions free
She pulls my lower lip and it takes its tollMy whole body tingles, like I’ve lost control

As the rain falls down I just can’t believeThat I need her to move, to think, to breathe
I take a step back and I look in her eyesShe tells me she loves me and my heart just flies

If you believe perfection simply isn’t realKiss your love in the rain, and I promise you’ll feel
Many things in this world can wash away painBut none of them compare, to kiss in the rain

~ Matthew

2009-10-29T23:29:00.000+08:00

SOMEONE........

2009-10-27T00:07:00.002+08:00

KWN-KWN LET ME TELL YOU THIS!!!!AKU SAYANG BUDAK PEREMPUAN YANG PAT ATAS NI!!!(ABOVE PICTURE) WE LAUGH TOGETHER WE CRY TOGETHER AND WE EVEN CAN PLAY AROUND WITH GUYS FEELINGS TOGETHER.13YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP MAKE US BECAME MORE LIKE A SISTER!!TWIN!!!LET ME SAY IT AGAIN TWIN!!!NO ONE CAN EVER REPLACE HER..AND SHE ALSO CANT FIND A REPLACEMENT!!!WE LOVE EACH OTHER AND TILL ONE DAY WE BROKEDOWN TOGETHER..WE SHARE FOOD WHEN BOTH OF US WERE BROKE.WE HAVE A DATE ALMOST EVERYDAY IF CAN!!!WE TALK ON THE PHONE EVERYNIGHT AND CONFERENCE WITH DIFFERENT GUYS.ARE WE BAD?NO!!!WE LEARN TO ACCEPT THE FACT THAT ALL ABOUT GUYS ARE BULLSHITS.I CRIED OVER HER FUCKING ASS RELATIONSHIP AND SHE CRIED OVER MY ASSHOLE RELATIONSHIP!PARANOID?DONT SAY IT CUZ WE ARE BEING ONE BECAUSE WE WONT GIVE A DAMN FUCKING SHITS ON GUYS UNLESS THEY ARE OUR KAKI GEREKS AND SOMEONE WHO CAN GET ALONG WITH US.ONE MORE THING WE HATE GIRLS WHO BITCH AROUND!!HAHAHA...AND THAT MAKE US STAND TOGETHER.YEAH WE DO QUARREL BUT IN THE END SHE LOVES ME AND I LOVES HER ALOT...SHE CANT LIVE WITHOUT ME AND I CANT LIVE WITHOUT HER.LESBIAN?HAHA..WE CAN BE ONE..BUT NO WE ARE STRAIGHT.I JUST LOVE THE FACT SHE HAVE THE SWEETEST SMILE AND GUYS WHO HURT HER WILL GET ONE FROM ME!AND SHE WILL DO THE SAME TO THOSE GUYS WHO HURT ME.ENOUGH!!!MAKE IT SIMPLE AND CLEAR.BELL KAU DGR OKAY!AKU SAYANG KAU..13 TAHON KWN DGN KAU,KAU BKN KWN AKU..TAPI SAHABAT AKU..KAU NYAWA AKU PAHAM SAYANG?13TAHON OKAY....

MY DARLAS AKU PON SAYANG KAU..TAPI KITE SAYANG DLM DIAM KAN..HAHA.MUACKS.

2009-10-26T23:07:00.003+08:00

SUMPAH AKU HAPPY!!!ABANG MAN BDAE WAS A BLAST!!!PLUS KUDE KEPANG PERFORMANCE BY SARKAS PUTRO WAS AWESOME.

PLANS FOR KAKI GEREKS: THIS WEEKENDS WE SHALL HAVE ANOTHER OUTING AYE?! FAI AKU NAK GMBR AKU!!!!HEE!!!

WE HAD SO MUCH FUN LAST WEEK.

=KARAOKE SESSIONS

=AWESOME OUTINGS AND HANGOUT!

=GEREK PE HIDUP NOW?HAHAHA!!!

Wan= Thanks for meeting me aye? Had fun talking with you just now.. Rindu banget si kenangan lame..Haha..

Izuwan=Saturday will be our day aye?Have a date with you!!hahaha!!!

Amirul Hafiz=Wen are you going to go back with me again?

I dont give a shit anymore to anyone who gonna think that they will hurt my feelings..Sorry i'm no longer that Wawa who gonna chase you arnd..So SHOO!!! I DONT NEED YOUR PRESENCE!! =)

Awesome awesome awesome DAY!!!! I LOVE MY KAKI GEREKS SO MUCH!!!!Okay gonna online and do my 3D!!!HATE IT!!!

2009-10-23T16:18:00.003+08:00

I will move...I wont stay..I wont entertain anything bullshits anymore..Am i different?I will be one..The only reasons that cheer me up is my siblings,my kaki gereks my sahabat and my classmates..

I LOVE THEM

I SHALL WALK WITH THEM AND AFTER SOMETIMES I WILL WALK ALONE.

=Dude thanks for all the listening ears cuz i wont bother you anymore.Since all of you readers did not know who is these guy i've been talking about from my previous post and never type out his name..I think i still wont let it out..Dude i knew you wont read this but let me tell you something, if i'm just a fren of yours why do you have to bother about us being quiet?Why you have to call me when i didnt text you?Why do you have to share everything about how you felt?Why do you bring me out? Why do you have to give surprise? I wont want to be left hanging anymore.I wont want to face these bullshits anymore.So if you want to avoid den MOVE!!I will be please with that.I'm not going to beg guy for anything anymore.No way!And dude let me tell you this, you make me smile wen first you said you didnt have the ease to get closer with me cuz i'm your ------- you should know it yourself..But in the end when i'm avoiding you text me and say many stuff.Till den you catches my heart.Dude if you trying to make things so difficult JUST MOVE!!!OKAY?THANK YOU.

(i didnt know you are one of them too)

ROKOK ANYONE?BYE!

2009-10-22T09:54:00.002+08:00

You always were a special friend
You knew that, i knew that
Only i knew something more
I knew that i love you and i have for so long
You complain because you cant find the "right girl"
I guess friendship makes you go blind to see
what standing right infront you.

It was just you and me.Two friends (Jurong Hill) And then with a simple look,my hand fell into yours.If i like you..would you still be my friend?

2009-10-22T00:44:00.002+08:00

Amirul Hafiz, thanks for meeting me.Meet up again aite one day..=)

And dude, where are you?I need you for now.Shessh i'm too stress to think about those people around.It really upset me so much.Dude if only i could share i will..Meet me up soon aye!!!!!!!!Gosh now i realise that i miss you again..For another time!And and i still have not open up and eat my CHEWING GUM..Someone share with me please?.__. I just kept it in my wallet and bring it to school everyday..Shessh..Pathetic sia..Jadi tlg kol wawa!!!I need someone to talk...=)

2009-10-21T03:06:00.002+08:00

I can't get you out of my mind, I keep thinking of how much I love talking to you... how good you look when you smile, how much I love your laugh... I day-dream about you off and on, replaying pieces of our conversation, laughing at funny things that you said or did... I've memorized your face and the way that you look at me... I catch myself smiling again at what I imagine... I wonder what will happen the next time we are together, I know one thing for sure, your the best thing that ever happened to me in a long time.

Before I met you I never knew what it was like to look at someone and smile for no reason.

I don't know if I like you or love you, want you or need you, all I know is I love the feeling I get when I'm near you

Usually, when any guy looks me in the eyes... I have to look away after about 3 seconds, but with him... I struggle to take my eyes off of him.

There are so many things I'd like to tell you. I wish you could understand, but if I told you. Both our worlds would change. For good or bad, I'm not sure.

I wish you could hear all the words I'm too afraid to say.

Because of you... I laugh a little harder, cry a little less, and smile a little more.

I look at him as a friend, then I realized I loved him.

Thanks for talking with me on the phone afterall i just wished you were by myside.I LOVE YOUR SMILE.

Mengapah hadir tanpa ku undang?

Dia?Dimanakah dia disaat ini?

Mengapah jantung berdegup?

Ah dia?Benarkah perasaan yang kian melanda?

Hatinya pula?Mengapah baru kini aku terasa?

Apakah aku lupa dengan apa yang aku katakan?

Tak mungkin dia!Hanya sementara...

Tapi setelah apa yang berlaku, aku berubah menjadi layu...

Pendirian apakah aku?

Kini mencarinya..Asyiknya bila apa yang dilakukan membuat aku tersenyum..

Sekali lagi aku tersenyum.

Tapi sampai bila?Itukah yang akan menjadi kenangan terakhir?

TIDAK!!Kini baru hati terbuka,minda berfikir.

Atau aku hanya perlukan cinta yang hilang?Bukan dirinya...

Angan,Angau,Senyum,Ketawa

Mengapah sekali lagi ia tiba?

Aku sudi jika dia sudi..

Jadi sudikah dia?

Aku rindu jika dia rindu..

Jadi rindukah dia padaku?

p/s:Hanya Kerana Chewing Gum

2009-10-20T01:27:00.002+08:00

For someone who is suppose to be "just friends" why do I always get butterflies in my stomach when you smile at me.

Thanks for the ride.Gosh Jurong Hill will be another memory for me.Somehow when you speak i love to look at your smile,thus i realise how my heart beat so fast.I kept looking at your eyes when you speak however i turn away when you look at me.When you keep talking about your work schedule, your hobby and stuff i never want you to stop.I dont know why.Especially when you ride your bike down the hill without starting your engine.It was the most exuberant moment i ever had.If i can hug i would but i did stay calm.When you send me back and say goodbye i just wish it wont be the last.However i dont know what is going to occur in future. I'd still thank Allah for giving me the opportunity to smile again.

(When you tell all the lies about not buying me chewing gum and you said that you've forgotten about it, i wasnt upset.I find that we're just friends so why do i have to expect to much.

Here our coversations goes

Me: Mane chewing gum org?=)

Him: Tak ade.Org tak beli.

Me: Rabak seh.Org da remind die.hmm.

Him: Org lupe...=)

Blah blah blah blah

Me: Die msk J.B die belikan org chewing gum.

Him: I dont think so.I wont be going J.B lagi..

Me: Haix..Alah msk JB beli chewing gum den kluar uh.HEE!!!

Him: Insya-allah tak janji.

Me: Asl insya=allah?

Him: Yela. if i say ok den i never buy or lupe lagi rabak.

Me: Okay.

Blah blah blah blah blah.

(Sit near his bike place before moving off)

Him : (Open up his box and search for something)

Me: (waiting/ignore)

Him: Nah..(giving a red coloured box)

Me: Ape tu?

Him: Chewing gum uh.=)

Me: ????!!!!!(GOSH!!!) Thank You! *blush*

Him: =)

Me: Kate lupe?

Him: Main2 je la.

Me: Hee...

Though its just a CHEWING GUM where i can get myself too, but its different when he surprise me with that..Thanks.I never wish to end this.=)I MISS YOU!

GOOD MORNING!

2009-10-19T17:11:00.002+08:00

Someone who use to be my friend, someone who use to be so charming in the eyes of many girls and i still find his charm is still there till now. After 6 years without any single news and i happen to meet him there on one occasion. I cant say its such a disappointment however it does take me awhile to realise things does change and people in the world will change too. Somehow i still find it enjoying to be able to watch his performance but i still could not believe what i saw.Ouch! We used to have fun together playing block catching with some of our classmates, practice our breakdance skills and more.Gosh, i was amaze to see how all of us grew up and became an adult. If only we could gather back. He used to sing one malay song at west coast while we were having our pit. Harriz is his name.

Lots of things happens for the pass few days, tons of assignments were given to us and we have to complete it before the dateline. ART HISTORY,INVESTIGATING ART,GONG BI,DRAWING 1,3D,DESIGN PROCESS,CERAMIC.

Thanks to Abang Pipit for his help on my 3D project. It took more than 6hrs to complete one object.Shessh. Its sucks however i'm still satisfy with it though the thing were 10x as big as my original piece.I'm shagged right now for goodness sake i couldnt get up and go for my drawing class.WAWA NO MORE ABSENT!!assessment is drawing near and i need to finish up my sketches!!!!!!!
Credit to: Belle,Fai,Bob,K.cka,K.la,Abang Chemong,Abang Man.

Amirul Hafiz=Apologise for not calling you.

-----=What is wrong with you dude?You're driving me crazy!We need each other but we never show it and yes you're tired with this and i'm tired too!!So please if you dun wanna stay just MOVE!In fact you still text me in the morning.HAIX!

Admire=Yes2..If really this is a crush,i don't know if i can take the real thing if its happens.=)

KEKASIH GELAPku=Mane kamu?Bwk wawa go LABRADOR PARK again! I need some peace or maybe you can sing for me again.=)IMISSYOU!

2009-10-17T01:57:00.002+08:00

=I knew he was upset with me for not able to call him.Haix.Please text me!!I so want my CHEWING GUM!

=Someone out there make my heart beat so fast.Err..He was right there again on thursday..ARGH!!

=Tons of assigments could drive me crazy. It keep bugging me. However the presentation wasnt bad at all.=)

=Belle, i dont know what to say actually but all the conference thingy will actually make me think twice.Gosh its crazy how people can still react that way. Despite of being humble why do they have to speak about what they going to do next but in the end they change their mind?I knew when someone asked, silent occurs in between their conversations.Maybe that particular person start to think or maybe he/she just wished they can neglect the feelings of missing someone. You know what? When EGO control their mindset the feelings of guilty wont appear. They can disagree with what their heart feels and what their mind thinks of. So be true to ourself and i agree with what people use to say. Its not about the look that attract people getting closer to you or even all the big bullshits we were proud about. Its actually the personality and how you speak infront of people. So yeah. I guess personally we have to learn how to love ourself before loving someone. Bullshits wont go far and remember lies will go away and truth will appear.

=I wished he would appear and sit beside me AGAIN!!!!

=I'm so going to become a zombie!!GO AND REST WAWA!!Ask me out anyone?

=BYE!

2009-10-14T00:32:00.004+08:00

My Painting & I

=THANKS ZUL sbab meet aku after class jgn lupe ehk psl...hahah..kau paham2 sudah.
=Chill with K.Cka, K.Ian, Abang Usop, Zul & Fai ( Talk crap!) Pity my sis okay sebab penat pki kasot tinggi..Lol High Heels?
=Tak sabarnye nak ade our next outing!!!Pat Mane Bell??Ok ok..Aku diam!!!
=Dec will be pack with activities and Kaki Gereks outing!!
=And now mane die!!!Tak text aku poN!!!tak nak bbl pat phone ke!!Wawa nak jugak!jgn lupe chewing gum wawa!!!!
=Err Liz...Aku..ar...heee..Kau paham2 la kan..Sweet uh dek tu!!!haha..Duh wawa pukol baru tau!!!Secret okay Liz..Hee!!
=Nhawfal what happen to you dude!!!!Blng wawa kalau ade ape2 dun keep secret..=)
=I miss chatting with Luke, his exams are just arnd the corner. Its alright.. Metal Shield hee..
=Ky, play a song for me. Can?LOL!!!
=Amirul Hafiz i'll meet you if i have the time..I promise and no i wont sketch your face.It will turn ugly.=) haha!!
=Okay la bye nak do design process.=)
=KEKASIH GELAPKU meet soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!I DUN CARE!

2009-10-13T03:25:00.002+08:00

Guys thanks for the exuberant moment..It was awesome it was a blast. Too bad Bell & Bob couldnt join us cuz Bell falls asleep and woke up at 1030pm and Bob had his Dikir thingy.So much noise & nonsense from both of them. (korg please okay..aku boleh jadi gile doh!)Zul i would love to see you react like a gay. KENA DGN KAU!!
Gosh should i say it out?No yes No yes?I dun think so..

=Nanep, thanks for the morning accompany okay.. Ya i will put myself inside the fridge to cool myself.Lol

=Luke, thanks to you for the awesome quote you send to me yesterday while i was on my way to school. =) And when are you going to record your voice and talk nonsense again?haha

=Ky, ya froggie..You should be the lecturer one day. So sweet of you to draw such a sweet looking frog and one part where i talk about kill the time you drew a knife and a clock.. It was absolutely Cute & Adorable. shall webcam again.

=Amirul Hafiz & Fadzli thanks for being a fren =)

=And to him sorry tak dpt talk on the phone..Wawa busy sgt2..Will talk soon aite and dont forget my CHEWING GUM!!!hee...

=Kekasih Gelapku mana kamu? NURUL MUNAWWARAH rindu sama kamu.haha =)

OKAY DONE! I SO HATE 3D!!shessh..

2009-10-12T00:58:00.003+08:00

=Dude when are you going to sing again?

=Spark putih blakang ade box.. Shessh..

=What Labrador Park?

=If only i can turn back the time, the moment you stare at me in silent.
=I would be glad to hear from you or atleast bump onto each other once again.

=The song you sang while we were in the rain.

=Sometimes sweet memories are meant to be kept. No one can ever erase it off.

=Dear Allah if i had the chance again i would ask him to sing for me.

=Kekasih Gelapku. =)

=See you soon okay..

=Hope it will rain today.

2009-10-10T00:37:00.002+08:00

=) I didnt notice after so long.Wawa wawa wawa..Oh what she always does is laugh at her mistakes.
=) Nanep make us walk from bugis till Heeren and i'm shagged right now.
=)KFC for dinner the three of us had the same meal.
=)Yes Nanep and me did talk about the past. Very dramatic.
=)Dearest Bell sabar okay aku paham perasaan kau skrg.
=)Shall meet them up again soon. A proper one.
=)Thanks Nanep for the accompany.So sweet and so touch.
=)Sape yang kenal wawa and rapat dgn wawa and nanep know our story..
=)NOPE!!!bkn 1 DAY lagi ok.HAHAH!!
=)Kekasih Gelapku Kite pat sini rindu awak ok!=)

2009-10-08T23:20:00.006+08:00

RAYA 2009
=BLUE & ORANGE THEME

2009-09-28T02:22:00.005+08:00

It was hillarious..Lets the pictures do the talking.

=I LOVE THEM

=BANGAUS GANG?NAH now its KAKI GEREKS!(skejap je.blom think of a name) =)

=Anyway Meet Nad Darla and Nisa Darla!!KECOH RABAK!!!Plus have a smoke break with LINA!

=Going to plan another outing soon!!!

2009-09-27T03:41:00.004+08:00

Just reached home at 3.15a.m...Gosh!what's happening to me?Hari2 alek pagi da gile ke ape?haha!!!!!Tak betol agaknye.Lots of things happen to me for the past few days. Exuberant moment!

Err.. Yesterday i mean on the 26sep it happen to be a familoy day in the morn and friends outing at night!!Shall upload the pic soon. Beautifully taken i guess..hee..Make new friends again. =) suke suke suke..When to escape with fam at 4. Seriously theme park are no longer a place for us to actually enjoy ourself. Lucky us for getting free tickets not having to pay such amount of money and get such entertainment.

Make a move at 730p.m since we plan to go sheesha at haji lane. Last min plan however it wen off smoothly.In fact we were having so so much fun!!!!seriously all of us were crapping about many stuff. Bile kaki gerek da jumpe they wont be looking at the time!NO WAY!!!!Take lots and lots of pic!!!Gonna upload it soon i promise till i get it from bell in facebook!!=)Tak sabar seh for another outing..!!!Where are we going next?Hee..Random hang out!!!

and and and we make our way to the station before that send Lina to meet her FRIEND!haha..Rabak pe...shhh..its between the 5 of us!!!Well after Lina make a move we headed to the train station. Da start uh bbl merepek2..Plus2 its still so sweet when that someone texted me that he already reach home and being so concern he asked about me.Awesome lor..haha!!!

Reached pioneer around 1 am. When to k.la house to karaoke. Best pe!!!okay2 i admit that i broke down. Ya about something and someone..Hee...tak klakar uh wawa...LOL!!! I cant bear to listen to those song when abang pipit dedicate to me lagu "TIARA" shessh..my mind was blank at the point of time. Err tak tau la ape nak ckp lagi, but what i know I ENJOYED MY DAY!!!THANKS TO DEAREST FRIENDS!!!Jgn lupe okay kite kluar same2 lagi!!!AGAIN!!!!

=Having the love of your life break up with you and say we can still be friends is like your pet dying and your mom saying you can still keep it.

=pointless

=to those who read about my everyday rants, just to make it clear. TRY TO UNDERSTAND WHAT I'M TRYING TO SAY. NOT JUST TELLING FOR THE SAKE OF IT. THANK YOU=)

=err that guy?oh no no no..totally a wrong person.Wrong guess.jgn marah cube lagi ok.

=MORNING!!!Gonna meeting Nad darla later!I MISS MY DARLAS!

=KEKASIH GELAPKU?=)

=MY SCHEDULE IS TOTALLY PACK!

-Chill, assignments, life, friends, -----, busy busy busy.hee.

OH TIARA PEDIHNYA, DAPATKAH KAU MERASAKANNYA =)

2009-09-26T01:44:00.003+08:00

=Today is fuc*&^* hillarious.
=Best sgt2 because meeting Nhawfal & my best guy friend. AT NIGHT!
=Meet Rome and have dinner too. Thanks for the ice milo dude. =)
=Jalan raya nak kena plan lagi! Haiyo..
=Meeting my dearest Bell and my best guy friend tomorrow.
=Have some gossips with Lina on the phone.
=Liz, Zack & me (touch kan share duit beli rokok) LOL!!! Sayang korg.
=I SAW THE GUY!!!WEE!!!Cume Liz aje yang tau kan?haha. Zack maybe.
=Go to Lassale to see them do their interviewing =)
=To those which i dun entertain today, sorry okay?Sebab busy plus stress!!
=Talk to him on the phone. (story telling about everything)
=I knew he was upset with me because he still want to talk.
=Nhawfal and ------ korg ni kan merepek rabak punye!!
=Thank God atlast dgr Nhawfal speak in malay. Kelakar ar dekni! Nak habis kan prepaid kan?Meh aku tolong!hahah..
=Going to sleep soon. =)
=Where is my Kekasih Gelapku? hee..

2009-09-25T02:26:00.002+08:00

=Today penat sgt2..
=Thank Allah s.w.t cuz i manage to clear my History assignment. =)
=Thanks to Yat okay..Haha!! Yes mmg touch sgt2. Tapi not for now. Sayang Kau la jugak.HOHO!!
=Meet MdNoh, Acap & his sister. Chill lame sgt2 haha..
=Please okay Acap jgn nak tipu2 aku.. Kereta konon haha!!!
=Were force to draw by MdNoh plus i couldnt stop laughing when Both of them start to draw each other faces.
=Acap tu bukan senyom MANJE OK!!!TU GATAL!!haha!!!!!!
=Texted that someone, skejap nak bbl pat phone, skejap mrajok. Tak tau la asl.
=Actually today i felt so fuck up with guys!!Ade yang irritating sgt2 ade yang ok.
=Too stress to think about this and that however i still enjoyed my day tau!!!!!!!
=Mane nie KEKASIH GELAPKU!!!
=Yat dedicate this song for me "BUKAN CINTA BIASA" by Afghan
=Chris once dedicate a song for me "Mad" by Neyo.
=Shafie sorry okay i didnt accompany you to chill. I mean for you to find an idea for your song. but dude i love you la!!!haha..My true scandal!Thanks for hearing me out and understand how i feel..Haha..That is what scandal are for.=)
=Hairi if you read this i want to THANK you for giving comment. I hope what you say will come true.
=Nhawfal & J.L thanks to both of you!!you guys brighten my day with the way you both msg me. I appreciate it alot!!Seriously!
=Bell aku rindu kau sayang!!!!!!!!!!!!
=Liz & Zack aku pon sayang korg jugak!!Mkn pat zam2 den ketawe2..BBL MEREPEK SEH KITE...Crapping about so many things. Just enjoying our day to the fullest.
=Lina makesure jumpe aku ok!!!
=Okay done! Nak tdo!Bye!

2009-09-23T13:48:00.004+08:00

Back in SCHOOL..shessh..Tons of assignments have to be done. After spending 2days doing my fuck up essays ATLAST i finished it up. However it suck up my day when i cant even print in out and Chris being such a good friend SERIOUSLY!!! haha..He helped me out but the fucking file is CORRUPTED! Cannot be open and he did try on his friend laptop just to help me out. SO SWEET!!!haha.. Lucky me i was given a chance to hand in on FRIDAY.. Happy oi..haha.

Lets talk about yesterday, it was a blast i could say. Meet Hatta and ride off to Suntec to meet Lina & Rome.. Chill with them till 9plus before he send me back jurong to meet my other friend tak lupe juge Lina & Rome teman hantar aku skali. They waited for me at Jurong Hill while aku chill dgn kwn aku till 11.30and headed back home.

Mom got nothing to say when i reached home.. Hee.. Couldnt be bothered =) and again Hatta Lina & Rome meet me under my block. Sorry uh sebab kena tunggu lame sgt.. Hee.. Hatta make a move at 2 a.m while Rome Lina and me started crapping. Rome salah mkn obat uh.. Haha!! we did some recording and Rome please stop your nonsense okay.. Merepek2 uh kau bbl.. Ape BATAM? Nak ade bilik sendiri and want to have some privacy? Fuck... Fantasy guy ehk? Kwang2.. Fantasy sgt.. Will plan soon aite err not to forget kite blom lagi go Sheesha as what we plan and go jalan raya.. Tak ya bwk motor okay semua? =) Wawa suke jln kaki.. LOL!!!AFter crapping headed back home at 3a.m den talk on the phone with MdNoh.

If only Acap read this, "ACAP!!!!!MD NOH AJAK LEPAK!!!TAPI DIE TAK BAGI AKU BLNG KAU!!KONONNYE SURPRISE!!!hahaha!!!!!" Byk ketawe seh aku hari ni..But in the end hang over sebab tdo arnd 4.15 am.. Benda aku buat sume tak btol den bbl merepek...

Dont know uh today jadi chill ke tak sebab byk benda nak buat and i have to do my assignments. Err but i want to meet him lor.. Visit org tu, kesian die tgh sakit.. Confirm kan dgn wawa cepat2 ok?

=Make new friends and all of them make my day!

=Liz mane kau?????Mangkok tol tak dtg skola!

=----- Take good care of yourself okay pat umah.. Jgn Nak kluar2 plak.

=Bile lagi nak jumpe KEKASIH GELAPKU? haha.. kalo jumpe mesti nak suroh die nyanyi punye..Time hujan la seh.. Haha. There's reason why aku tak nak gi labrador park because tmpt tu tmpt yang paling BEST skali..haha..
=Aku da start bbl merepek sbab ngantok sgt2..

=Okay la nak stop bye..

"Ku Mencintaimu lebih dari apapun meskipun tiada satu org pon yang tau. Ku mencintaimu sedalam dalam hatiku, meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku."

2009-09-20T22:54:00.002+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya!!
=Its different from last year.
=err however i'm glad there's someone who still by myside..
=----- texted me and can i say he did accompany me when i'm bored..
=Tak sangke org tu bole msg bangon kan aku time die nak gi sembahyang raya.
=Bile nak meet die ehhk..haha
=KEKASIH GELAPKU!!!lol..
=JUMPE LAGI!!!nak siap kan assignment!!stress oi!!!!!!!!

2009-09-18T04:28:00.002+08:00

Nutt Darling aku sayang kau la...Buat bodoh je..haha.Aku tau kau pon sometimes tak btol jugak..Post kau pon gile2..
Nisa Darling aku pon sayang kau sebab kau lagi kecoh hahah...Kecoh gile.
Shyda Darling!!!What?JIBENG!!nyanyi lagu raye kekek pe kau...!!!!!!!!!
Belle SAYANG!!ni lagi satu budak yang aku sayang rabak..Other den one person..hee...Kau dun worry okay..
Two guys= Aku akan anggap korg kawan lelaki yang paling BEST!sebab korg selalu ade...tapi aku tak nak blng name..hee..

Btw tadi DIE msg aku!!!haha..ler msg pon nak happy..But i can feel it..LOL!!!!Now i know die da sleep..Kesian gitu kan...He already remind me yang pat mustafa tak ade PAINT!!!aku degil jgk kan..Haha..Okay2 Next wawa dgr ckp die okay....=)
SHHHHHH..Tak nak blng name..hahaha..

2009-09-17T23:03:00.002+08:00

SERIOUSLY I WONT FORGET NAD & BELLE POST!
tak tau la kan..sume kluar sebab GERAM..haiyo..ape da jadi...And Shyda klakar pe kaunye comment!!!!OH PLEASE!!!

Okay2 now aku tgh wait die alek work..MANE DIE!!!!!
haha..kecoh la wawa..saje saje je..
BYE!!!
KEKASIH GELAPKU!

2009-09-17T17:18:00.002+08:00

I still remember that someone texted me yesterday..Being concern and so caring.."Dun go home too late ok?" He even texted me when he was back home..Err for now i cant say it out..we're still new and i wan to get to know him more..Closer/i guess..hahah..
Okay la..This few days i seem to smile all day long..haha..WAWA & ----- hahaha!!!!Sape rapat dgn wawa mesti die tau..MUACKS!!!

Hope now die hati2 pat work..hahaha..Kesian buke pat luar...
I appreciate all my friend deed..
-wawa-

2009-09-16T18:14:00.003+08:00

I dun believe that My Sahabat Belle can ever do that..seriously Belle aku tau kau mrh..haha.Tak tau uh aku nak buat ape..But what i know KELAKAR SIAK KAU!!!AKU SAYANG KAU!!hahah...Camne kalo org tau..haha..siak2..Kecoh nanti...Aku confirm Nad suke lagi2 Nisa kan..hahah..siak uh..

Yes mmg betol ape kau ckp kan...Aku ingat dulu Afiq ckp suroh aku chill..What Afiq?Takkan dtg balik..Tapi kan aku rase aku da jatoh....haha..Korg paham2 uh..Tapi siape?Yang mane?haha cannot confirm yet..kwang3..

Aku tak leh lupe kan uh ape jadi semlm...Aku happy sebab ade org pat seblah aku..Yes dgn lagi due kwn lelaki yang aku tak nak blng name..Pandai2 fikir okay..Aku sayang dorg mcm mane aku sayang diri aku..Baik Pe?

HAHA KALO MASE BOLE PUTAR BALIK AKU TUNGGU SI DEKTU..TAK PON KEKASIH GELAPKU!!haha..Tak tak tak..bkn gatal nie cume buat kwn mane tau salah satu bole buat kahwin!!hahahah..okay la aku nak meet kwn aku..Kwn gerek aku =) Hari2 alek lmbt takpon alek pagi..Hahah..
-warah-

2009-09-16T01:48:00.004+08:00

EUPHORIC POST!!!!AKU SUKE!!!

I Love U GUys....

Anyway thanks okay YAT teman aku kluar jln2..Aku sayang kau..and and and aku tak akan lupekan yang kau adoi..camne nak ckp ehk...hahaha aku MALU SIOT!!..But what i know aku happy..sayang tak dpt amek gmbr same2..tu la penat jln..hahah..Lover ehk?hahah..Ape kahwin?Kekek uh..Byk buat klakar...Happy gile siot aku..Haiya..Jgn tnye asl ehk..Sebab hari ni aku mmg happy sgt2...with YAT!!!!

And Rome mane kau ngan Lina?Kate nak jadi akunye..hahahah!!!paham2 la...So sweet kan hari tu...Rome2..Lina2...Bell2...hahaha Sblom die buat kite buat..kau paham kan Rome?ya aku tau kau paham...SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

And2 Chris ya I MISS YOU!!!hahaha....Thanks for all the good deeds you've done..VERY GOOD!hahaha..see you soon i know you cant wait to be my ..... hahah...no just kidding.... All i can say THANK YOU cuz you said you always there for me...

Err...ADI??Okay2 terimah sebab dgr luahan hati wawa..Touch kape!!But it touches my heart bile dgr Adi panggil KAK CKA..haiyo...suke nyanyi kan?jom gi karaoke...Suke suke suke..Loyar burok byk sgt..Thanks sebab sanggup turon malam2 kan...Ops bukan malam pagi2..haha..Rabak Kak Cka kena kan..hee.

Hafiz?Oh ya my best2 one...hahah...The cool guy..LOL!!tak uh tapi kan die selalu ade time wawa susah..BAIK PE!!.

I FALL FOR ONE GUY?NO!!!hahaha...KEKASIH GELAPKU!!!paham2 la...

what WARaFIQ?Haha..NO WAY..But one thing wawa tak pernah menyesal TUNGGU AFIQ!!!Muacks!!

-Warah-

2009-09-12T02:48:00.003+08:00

ALLAH MAHA KUASA...amin..

2009-09-11T05:10:00.002+08:00

Walaupun die tak ade lagi disisi..aku nak die tau hati ini masih lagi miliknye..aku nak die tau aku rindukan die..aku rindu pelukkan die..aku rindu dgr suare die..aku rindu menatap wajah die..aku rindu bile die selalu ade..aku rindu senyuman die..aku rindu bile die panggil aku Ayang dan gelarkan diri die Abang..Aku rindu bile die mrh aku sbab aku degil...Aku rindu bile lipatkan baju die ingatkan brg yang die lupe..Aku terfikir bile die tak ade duit..Kite same2 susah..Kite same2 nangis..Kite same2 mrh..Aku rindu semua itu..
Sekiranya die bace rangkaian ini...
"Ayang nak Abang tau...Hati ini masih lagi milik Abang..Dan demi Allah sesungguhnya...Ayang masih menyayangi Abang..yang pasti hanya Tuhan yang dapat memisahkan kite...Ayang masih lagi berdoa agar kebahgiaan masih lagi menjadi milik Ayang walau sedikit..Abang nak tau tak..Baju raye kite da siap..Lawa Kak la jahitkan...Ayang teringin nak pakai same dgn Abang..Tapi byk benda yang telah berlaku..Abang kalau Ayang diberi peluang dan Abang diberi peluang untuk memperbaikki keadaan..Ayang berjanji untuk tidak mempersiakan semuanya..Muhd Nur Ayie(Saifuddin) kasih dan sayang yang slame ini kita bina bersama masih lagi bersisa..Ayang tidak akan lenyapkan semuannya dengan mudah kerana hati ini masih lagi untukmu Abang..."

Though 99% is totally No
For the remaining 1% can i look forward?

Wawa merindui Muhd Nur Ayie.

2009-09-09T14:41:00.002+08:00

Pahitnya sebuah kenyataan kadang-kala lebih indah daripada mimpi yang sekadar mengasyikkan.

Kini aku berlajar untuk mengembalikan semangat yang kian lama hilang..Menempuhi segala dugaan sendirian..Setelah semuannya berubah arah..Sesungguhnya aku terkilan namun aku redha dengan kehendaknnya..Biarlah dia bahagia disamping insan yang dapat membahagiakan dirinya..Walaupun luka dihati ini masih lagi terasa..Aku redha...
Sekirannya aku keseorangan..Biarlah..
Biar aku menangis sendiri,biar aku yang mengesatkan airmata yang jatuh mengalir.Biar aku belajar untuk memujuk hatiku yang lara.
Jika waktu dahulu dia yang memelukku saat aku kesejukkan, dia yang menemani aku saat aku keseorangan biar kini aku lakukannya sendiri..
Waktu berputar dengan terlalu pantas..Aku gagal mengejarnya.

-wawa tidur no more geli2 ok.
-wawa jgn nangis lagi tau.
-wawa balik sendiri ok.Hati2 bile balik.
-wawa blajar sayang diri wawa sendiri..
-wawa kuat kan?
-wawa hug diri wawa sendiri ok.
-wawa takmoh mrajok..takde org pujok lagi.

Terimah kasih atas kehdiranmu selame ini..

2009-09-06T16:52:00.002+08:00

sorry for this post i'll type in malay..

yes..aku marah aku sedih aku geram sgt2 ape yang terjadi...aku bkn nak hebohkan ape yang terjadi..tapi aku pon manusia jugak...kadang kala ade perasaan sedih,gembira,benci,rindu semuanya..

Aku mmg rindu kenangan time dulu2..Sekarang byk benda da berubah..Biar uh kalo org ingat aku nie yang tak pernah faham..tak pernah nak understand between kwn and relationship..tapi aku nak selamat kan hubungan aku..aku ade hak utk sume tu...
kwn?kwn ke tu kalo dieorg sanggop tgk hubungan org lain retak?kwn ke tu yang biarkan benda yang tak patot terjadi...

Aku sedih..die byk mngkan kwn die..die tak akan perna burokkan kwn die..tapi aku?sape aku dgn die..byk kali aku nangis sorg2..die tak perna tau tu sume..mmg bile dpn die aku cube kuatkan diri aku.aku cube blajar terima semuanye..tapi smpi bile?..
Tgk alek sume gmbr...dorg terlalu rapat...matair mane yang tak ade perasaan cemburu...mmg aku boleh buat mcm gitu jgk...tapi aku tak perna..sbab aku tak smpi hati nak buat die mcm gitu..aku tak nak die rase kehilangan.aku tak nak die rase ditipu..tapi bile aku fikir kan alek kenape die sanggop buat sume tu?!!!!!!die tak perna fikir bile aku nangis sorg2..sometimes aku rase diri aku ditipu..

Korg nak ckp ape ckp la...aku da tak kesah lagi..kalo btol die sayangkan org yang die tgh rapat skrg..pergi la..aku bersedia utk everything..aku tak sanggop tgk sume gmbr dorg due org mcm happy couple...mungkin die bukan utk aku...yes kali ni aku akan ckp pat kwn die sume.."Korg menang..korg dpt die brubah dan pergi pat korg...korg dpt buat die hilang perasaan sayang pat aku..thanks..aku mengaku kalah kali ini..."

Yang peliknye bile aku ade ramai tak turon nak buke same2...sudahla...one day korg akan tau ape rasenye...aku tak kan berdendam tapi biar tuhan tunjokkan kebenarannye..
Thanks tu kwn2 dan family yang selalu bagi aku semgt...

Yes badan die lawa and aku kurus..Badan die hot aku tak.Tapi aku ade satu iaitu kesetiaan yang tak pernah berbelah bagi...
-wawa-

2009-08-30T00:04:00.003+08:00

THIS MAN

After Day I See My Life

Right Before My Eyes,

Night After Night Im Alone

Always Wondering Why.

Im Feeling My Heart Ache

As My Dreams Fade Away,

I Feel The Lost Of Love

Each And Everyday.

You Think That We Are Alright

Cause You Think My Pain Is Gone,

But You Seen The Tears

I Have Cried And Yet Im Still Alone.

You Are This Man That I Gave My Heart To,

You Are This Man

But Do You Feel The Same As I Do?

Where Are You Now

When I Need You The Most?

Where Are You Now

Are You Somewhere Close?

Are You Able To Love Me Back?

Or Will You Turn The Other Way?

Will You Give Me Your Heart

And Make It Easier To Stay?

Can You Treat Me Right

And Calm My Fears?

Take All My Pain Away

By Wiping My Tears.

Hold Me In Your Arms

Pull Me In So Close,

Let Me Know Im Loved

Thats What I Need The Most.

So Tell Me Now And Tell Me True,

Are You This Man

I Want From You?

2009-08-25T17:36:00.006+08:00

Dear you're too far away from me now.I miss the moment you always do stupid gesture and i even miss your tamper.I dont care as long as you will be with me i'll accept every of your bad & good character because i fall in love with you and who you are.I wish you were here once again but i knew the time hasn't yet arrive.Just to let you my dear Baby Bangaus..."Ayang sayang Abang and Ayang tak nak kehilangan Abang..cukop la sekali..Ayang harap Abang sedar ape yang telah Abang lakukan."

Sedihkan,kegembiraan yang sering kita lalui pasti akan kegoyahan oleh kerana orang ketiga ataupun pendirian seseorg itu..

Jangan pernah menyatakan perasaan sayang jika hatimu itu milik org yang lain....

I took a quiz in Bell's facebook about sincerity and faithfulness and this are the result.If only he realise about it..=(

I loved you more than I have ever known
Those starry eyes
Those tender lips
You made my heart melt
Then boil into a roaring fire
I now know
What my eyes could not see
You are the only one that is for me
Many nights those tears flew
Being myself without anyone
Anyone to care about the thoughts
Looking at the sky and knowing
Many mistakes I had
Many mistakes I have had

2009-08-16T20:46:00.003+08:00

I MISS HIM
There's a new story i wish to share..

I believe that people might be thinking that my blog is dead..No its not..Pardon me for leaving it without news..

I've got tons of assignment to be done..=(

The reasons for me leaving this blog dead is not because i want it to be.I'm out to find a new story for me to share..A new story for me to type in my blog..And now here i am..

On 8 August 2009 i enjoyed my day with my beloved Baby Bangaus...Though we often meet its different wen times comes we sat together till morning awaiting for our anniversary to come which falls on 9 August 2009 and Narayie turned a month older.The day before i already wrote a letter for Baby Bangaus to read at 12sharp..We headed to E.C.P around 8.30pm, it was hillarious cuz i've got to hold the fishing rod which is so long and Baby Bangaus had to hold the 4men tent.Luckily we manage to survive throughout the journey =)...We reached E.C.P at about 9.15pm sharp..
We build our tent with the help of indian guy =)..While waiting for the time to come Baby Bangaus try out Abang Pipit fishing rod while i went to Mc cuz all of sudden i was craving for shaker fries and i glad Baby Bangaus let me buy the fries.It was so windy on that particular night.No stars ahead but only full moon.While Baby Bangaus waiting for me he sat patiently on the wind braker..I sat beside him and i did share my shaker fries (goody wawa)..While eating there were three huge cocroaches coming towards my mayonaise and chilli sauce its sucks!!!!!i've to let them be..Baby Bangaus change his mind and decided to have a break after lik 30min of fishing?Lol...we sat inside the tent and played card games.It was fun thought there were only two of us..We talk about us,others and many stuff..
At 12 sharp i gave him the letter i wrote..I'm sure he was touch.(i guess so)It took him awhile to read out every words cuz its already night.After reading he fold the paper and kiss me gently on my cheek and hug me..AWW!!lol i'm sure you guys will find it dramatic..hahah..Its kind like a Hindi story..But no running with background music okay..hahah..Most of the time we just smoke and crapping about stupid stuff..I knew it wasnt really romantic but i did feel different..Its totally different i can say...
Spending the night with your loved ones..There's nothing for me to share the next day but i do appreciate the night i spend with him watching other people get caught by police its an enjoyment for me..=)

However now...I guess he rather spend his time more with his friends rather than me.I'm quite upset with his behaviour.He make me realise something.I ain't a good girlfriend i think.His friends are better..All i can pray to Allah s..w.t may he realise everything is different..
I MISS HIM

2009-08-04T23:58:00.002+08:00

Boy, is there something you wish to tell me but you're afraid of me getting hurt?

( I WONDER )

Sorry for the lack of updates...Busy with school stuff..Tak la stress tapi penat..If i've the time to elaborate every single thing i promise i will.. =)

"Aku meniti hari yang mendatang.Masih adakah sinar untukku buat hari seterusnya?"

=Liz & Nisa (perangai korg boleh tahan ok..WHAT? IMH!!LOL!)

=I hate Gong Bi OK!!!

=Baby Bangaus (Do you still remember the first time we fell in love?)

=Am i still in the list? (No? Yes? No? Yes?)

I knew that my post is totally upsetting.I'm not in the mood to blog again..But i still love blogging!Shessh!!!!!!!Can someone change my mind? No? Yes?

Bye.

2009-07-25T22:38:00.002+08:00

Life could drive me insane...(NOT)
Sorry for the lack of updates..Tight schedule and gotta get my work done..Shessh..School was great!!!!Awesome!Meet new friends and most of the time we were given permission to go wherever we like to draw or sketch out anything..
=Drawing 1 (awesome!done the drawing can go home)
=3D studies (cool!!)
=Investigating Art (so far yet so good)
=Ceramic (the lecturer speaks to himself..LOL!)
=Design Process (Its tideous oK!!!Have to use pen and the line must be perfectly STRAIGHT & NEAT!)
=Gong Bi (dont' ever asked me about it..I'm blank cuz the lecturer speaks in mandarin and guess what..How can WATER LILY be WATERMELON?)
=History of Art (Interesting!give opinion towards famous artis and what we know and understang about art.)

So, what is so good about NAFA? (read back the first to the last paragraph about Art Classes)
I'm done here and yes before i forget about my new poem for GUYS especially.

Satu Penipuan

Satu Kepuraan

Pendustakah dikau mengkhianati sebuah percintaan?

Apakah percintaan itu membuat engkau menjadi alpa?

Ah!Aku wanita yang tak mengerti mahupun aku juga tidak ingin untuk mengerti perasaan hatimu.

Pendustalah dikau pabila hati ini kau guris tanpa simpati.

2009-07-19T23:13:00.004+08:00

Do comment if read.I wrote this write up myself.So please comment =)

LELAKI?

Sayang sejauh manakah ketulusan hatimu padaku?
Seluas mana kasih sayangmu?
Aku mengerti bahawa ia tidak dapat menandingi kasih Allah s.w.t pada umatnya
Tidak dapat juga ia menandingi keihklasan Nabi Muhammad pada umat mukminnya.

Tetapi mengapakah masih ada perasaan resah?
Perasaan kecewa yang entah dari mana datangnya.
Ah!Lelaki semuanya sama!Adakah engkau juga sama sepertu mereka?
Menjadi buaya yang mencari mmangsa...
Akhirnya meninggalkan mereka yang dibaluti luka dan sengsara.

Lelaki memang tidak boleh dipercaya!
Lain yang dijanji, lain yang terjadi.
Banyak selindungannya, bertimbun rahsianya
Tidak lagi ditambah dengan tipu helahnya.

Aku sang percinta memiliki hati dan jiwa.
Adakala bahagia mendampingi diri
Adakala duka yang terus hadir tanpa henti.
Dimana silapnya?
Sedang aku yang khayal dalam bercinta
Engkau dibelakang penuh dengan pura....

2009-07-16T23:21:00.003+08:00

Just get back from Teh Tarik. Had dinner with Baby Bangaus family (seriously aku malu) What???Wawa jadi pemalu??~~~~ya ya ya...I was totally blank when i saw Baby Bangaus mak cik and all his family...Kalau keluar biase2 ok la..But now EAT TOGETHER!!!!Hahah..Just imagine someone who talks so much and laugh so loud became so quiet and shy??? "Die jgn nak step malu la"Everyone were super duper friendly.I guess Ayah & Mama could get along very well if they meet up one day..Kirekan jadi kaki gerek la tu...~~~Both talks so much..Heee..
Okay la nak mandi den sleep..Cant wait for tomorrow!!!Meeting Baby Bangaus,Zul & SURPRISE!!!!lets see what happens tomorrow...

Thanks Hubby for another marvelous outing with your family.It gets us much much closer den before.

HAPPY 18 BIRTHDAY! DA LEGAL SEH!!!
sorry if gambar kau tak lawa, aku da carik tapi tak jumpe..kirekan yang ni ok la..hee

I LOVE YOU CIBAI!You're my one and only Dearest Bell!

2009-07-15T21:20:00.002+08:00

"Kadang-kadang Allah sembunyikan matahari.Dia datangkan petir dan kilat.Kita tertanya-tanya kemana hilangnya matahari.Rupa-rupanya dia jadikan pelangi."

=Love Baby Bangaus family.

=Starting school on mon =)

=Tomorrow meeting Baby Bangaus family again.

=Shops so much. =)

=I love Syurga Cinta and (awal ahari)

random post...ok bye.

2009-07-09T20:03:00.004+08:00

Its our annieversary dear. I miss the way we are. I miss hugging you. I miss the way you always get angry. Eventhough its hurt i still couldnt stop missing it.. Its you that i miss. Remembering every date we had every laughter of us together.
Dear Allah s.w.t please let us stay strong and please lead us to the right path of life.May you bless us ya Allah s.w.t and please let him know that my love for him is strong enough to stand still.Amin...

I'll tell it rather simply;

I'll say it plain and true-

A single thing is all I want

And all I want is you.

There are no other riches,

No treasures or possessions

That ever could compare with you,

My fondest of obsessions.

You are the very air I breathe,

The ration that sustains me.

You're all my thoughts tied up as one,

The laugh that entertains me.

You're all that life need ever give,

The maximum that's due.

If I could ask for anything,

I'd only ask for you.

Can i have another m&m delights that you gave it to me?shessh i needed you by myside baby..I need a hug from you.

2009-06-26T17:29:00.005+08:00

" Don't let life discourage you; everyone who got where he is had to begin where he was"

Richard L. Evans

My days wen as pernormal, wake up text Baby Bangau meet him after work and had our dinner den online and chat with Dearest Bell.Suddenly my 1st sis appears online(padahal pat bilik sblah tu pon nak chat.Lol)~~~ and thus we had some conversation and she send me two emails one is rather about "Peribahasa terkini" I lol so much while reading it and ~~~~~~ there's another one that could make me lol even before i read the content.

The tittle was "GAY MELAYU"
I was so ineterested about it and and and wen i opened up the file i was SMILING widely =)!!!! Omg!!!That was "his" blog (i knew it was his blog and his say but i couldnt stop laughing!) and he happily put up his pic with his "BF" and type out some romantic poems about their love stories..Okay aku maseh lagi terperanjat..For etc he type "Sayang percayalah hanya tuhan yang bisa memisahkan cinta kita" den he even copied and paste Imran lyric "seribu tahun"!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was totally hillarious okay!sumpah aku tak tipu..There's some part which i think should be personally kept. Oh before i forget he's not singaporean but malaysian.No offence, i was just telling you guys what i saw.Never in my whole 18 years of life looking at some romantic pictures and phrase that was merely type out by a GUY i mean "lelaki yang cukup sifatnye."

I would be gratified if Baby Bangaus have the intention of the same thing. Wait NO! before you guys going too far ahead .__. what i meant was Baby Bangaus will wrote romantic phrases and and and say so much about his love journey or i guess i should just let it be..The sweetest part is that both of them did their prayers together.Cume sayang la kan~~~~~World influence had gone so far ahead..Its changing slowly. However when we realise its already change everything.So lebih baik kite cepat2 ambil kisah pasal ni.Dont ever say "its none of our business its theirs." Cuz if we really treasure our life we would take this case in mind. Maybe one day our guy friends could be one and even our girlfriends could be one or we could become another one too.So THINK! =)

I guess i've been typing long enough sampai da malas nak type lagi.
"I'm sick and i need Baby Bangaus to be by myside."

bye

2009-06-24T23:06:00.003+08:00

=I'm shagged right now...

=Been practicing for 3hrs straight at clementi for the upcoming show.

=Relearn the Nirmala song(aku joget huru-hara!)

=Err hungry plus thirsty.(tu la tadi tak nak makan)

=Eat some Durian (tak hilang kan kelaparan langsong!)

=Not to forget "thanks dearest bell sebab jumpe aku and wardiah tadi"(lol)

=No idea what to update..

=Been downloading game at Bigfishgames.com(kill the boredom)

=Miss Baby Bangaus =(

=Nak tdo ok.(before tat cuci muke)

=BYE!

p/s:Untuk sahabatku...Mengertila setiap kesabaran itu ada batasannya.Aku pasti saat itu akan tiba pada kau satu hari nanti sahabatku.Jangan mudah terpedaya dengan alasan yang diberinya kerana kita tidak pasti akan tipu helahnya.Mengecewakan atau Dikecewakan?Mana satu lebih pahit.Fikirkan lah sebaik-baiknya.

Demi Kasih Yang Kubina

2009-06-23T02:29:00.003+08:00

My own write up.If read do comment.Thank You.

Kegelapan malam yang kelihatan samar dan suram menyentuh ruang perasaan hatiku.Angin malam yang menyapah tubuhku membuat jiwaku tergugat.Aku mendongak ke langit yang terbentang luas lantas aku terpaku melihat suasana malam yang amat berbeza seperti malam-malam sebelumnya.Bintang yang bekerdipan tidak kelihatan dan cahaya bulan juga tiada disisi.Walaupun kesunyian itu dapat kurasakan, namun jauh disudut hatiku tercalit sebuah perasaan yang menimbulkan satu kegembiraan."Malam yang mempunyai keistimewaannya walaupun aku sendiri tidak dapat menafsirkan keistimewaan malam tersebut.Walau tidak ditemani bulan untuk menyinari malam.Walau tidak dipenuhi bintang yang bekerdipan, tetapi malam ini tetap istimewa.Malam yang penuh dengan kesayuan dan diiringi bersama ketenangan.Apakah malam esok akan sama seperti malam ini?"Suara hatiku berbisik sendirian.Kini aku berjaya bergelar seorang isteri.Namun akhir kisahku biar Tuhan yang menentukan.

"Ingat! Saya nikah dengan awak sebab mama dan papa terlalu sayangkan awak.Ini rahsia kita berdua.Saya tahu mama dan papa mengharapkan saya mendapat calon isteri yang baik seperti awak, tapi pilihan saya tetap pada Rozita,kerana dia telah banyak mengubah hidup saya!Jangan mimpi awak boleh mencuri hati saya.Oleh itu saya harap perasaan cinta tidak akan pernah terjalin diantara kita berdua.Faham?!Saya hanya ingin memiliki Rozita bukan awak."Kata-kata Irfan yang berbaur penghinaan memasuki corong telingaku.Dia mengibaratkan aku seperti alat boneka yang boleh dijual beli.

"Apakah pernikahan ini satu sandiwara?Sedangkan aku berkahwin untuk menjadi isteri yang soleha dan sentiasa berada disamping suami tercinta.Tetapi mengapah balasan sebegini yang harus aku terima?Apakah dosaku Ya Allah?"Oleh kerana gagalnya mulut memainkan peranan maka emosi yang semakin sendat menggasak pula melalui corong mataku.Segala urat saraf yang menyelirat didalam bola mata memerah darah hingga menjadikan ia merah bernyala.Tekanan yang maha hebat dari amukan emosi yang mendampar mataku begitu hebat sehingga aku kecundang untuk melawannya.Lalu tekanan emosi itu meletus keluar sebagai titis airmata yang bergenang.Aku kecewa.

Hari berganti hari,hidupku ibarat melukut ditepi gantang.Kehadiran yang tidak dirasakan seolah-olah diriku ibarat sebuah perhiasan yang tiada nilainya.Aku bagaikan orang asing disisinya.Dirumah,kami langsung tidak bersara,hidup didalam kebisuan yang kendengaran hanya tiupan angin mahupun titisan hujan.Hidangan sarapan pagi dan malam langsung tiada sentuhan. Hanya itu yang mampu aku lakukan."Tiada guna menagih cinta pada mereka yang tidak mempunyai ruang kasih sayang untuk diri kita.Alangkah bahagianya kehidupan seorang isteri yang sah sekiranya dia mendapat belaian manja daripada sang suami."Malangnya diriku tidak serupa seperti isteri-isteri yang berada diluar sana.Aku bernikah bukan atas dasar cinta.

"Sayang,I yakin You boleh buat mama dan papa I gembira.Buktikan pada mereka yang you boleh jadi lebih baik selain Qiara."Suara Irfan kedengaran bergetar-getar.Dia amat berharap bahawa kekasih hatinya akan membuat keputusan secepat mungkin.Dia akui bukan senang untuk memujuk Rozita yang keras kepala.Perbezaan Rozita dan Qiara amat ketara sekali,dari segi pakaian ternyata Qiara tidak setanding Rozita yang bergaya moden.Kedua-duanya ayu belaka tetapi keayuan Qiara lebih terletak pada kesopanan dan hati budinya.Disebabkan tutur bicara Qiara yang menyenangkan membuat mama dan papa Irfan mengambil keputusan supaya Qiara dijadikan menantu.Apa yang membuat mama Irfan tidak menyenangi Rozita kerana caranya yang mengada-ngada lagaknya seperti orang yang ternama."Kata mama dia inginkan menantu yang berkualiti dan yang mampu jaga makan minumku serta pakaianku setiap hari seperti Qiara."Irfan berbisik sendirian.Bingung fikirannya mengenangkan semua ini.

"Demi cintaku padamu,ku serahkan jiwa dan ragaku...."Alunan suara Amy Search memecah kesunyian malam.Lirik lagu tersebut kuamati sedalam-dalamnya.Pena berwarna biru dikeluarkan dari laciku dan buku peribadiku diambil darii beg lengan yang tersandang dibirai katil.Aku mula menyusun madah,dan setiap madah yang ku coretkan akan ku baca berulang kali agar tiada cacat celah.Lantas puisi yang dikarya oleh diriku,ku baca perlahan-lahan.

Demi...Demi kerana kasih yang telah berputik,Kupanjatkan doa agar semuanya berubah.Demi kerana cinta yang telah bersemi,Kupohon keinsafan kerana terlalu menyayangi.Demi kerana rindu yang htelah terjalin,Ku akui ia hanyalah satu bencana bukan kurniaan..Demi kerana putera yang ku sanjungi,Aku berharap agat perasaan yang kian membara tidak akan berakhir sekelip mata.Jangan ada benci, jika cinta yang dicari sudah terkunci di dalam hati.Membuai jiwa meruntun perasaan,mengundang ceria segala duka terhimpun disini.Adakah senyum tercipta atau airmata kesudahannya?Biarlah Allah s.w.t yang menentukan segalanya.

Aku menatapi potret milik Irfan yang tersandang gah didinding kamarku.Wajah jejaka itu yang ku impikan setiap waktu namun kesemua pengorbananku tidak pernah dihargainya.Tatkala aku khayalan ku sedang berlegar-legar difikiran, daun pintu ku diketuk.Aku disapa oleh buah hati Irfan yang tidak mengenal erti adab dan sopan.

"Hei perempuan!Aku akan bermalam disini jadi aku nak kau keluar dan tidur dibilik yang lain!jangan nak bantah sebab Irfan yang suruh aku halau kau!Dasar perempuan tak tahu malu!Rampas kekasih org.Sundal!"Dengan lancangnya Rozita memaki hamunku.Tahap kesabaranku sudah berada diakhirnya namun belum sempat aku melawan, satu lempangan hinggap dipipiku.Aku meraung kesakitan.Rozita mula bersuara menyatakan aku punca segalanya apabila Irfan datang menghampiri.Irfan merenung tajam kearah ku lantas membawa Rozita berlalu pergi dan meninggalkan aku sendirian. Sakit hatiku masih bersisa.

"Mengapah cinta itu dijadikan buta Ya Allah?Mengapah ia mudah dicemari?"Manik-manik jernih jatuh membasahi pipiku sekali lagi.Akibat kesakitan yang masih terasa dan nafasku seolah-olah tersekat lantas tanpa aku sedari aku terlena dihadapan pintu kamarku.Lenaku bukan sementara waktu.

Keesokkan hari Irfan pulang kerumah dan kini dia pulang sendirian.Dia terlihat Qiara masih lagi terlena dihadapan kamarnya, timbul perasaan simpati melihat isteri yang menderita dalam diam. Semalaman dia tidak mampu melelapkan matanya apabila hatinya diselebungi oleh perasaan bersalah terhadap isterinya itu."Kenapa baru sekarang aku menyedari bahawa Qiara yang terbaik?" Keluh hatinya.Irfan sudah tidak dapat mengawal amarahnya apabila Rozita mengherdik serta menghinanya semalam.Apatah lagi Rozita memburukkan nama keluarganya."You ni memang anak mak agaknya!Asik ikut cakap mak bapak you!Mak you kolot pilih perempuan macam tu.Perempuan tua tu macam tak ada menantu lain pulak kan?!" Tanpa sempat meneruskan katanya tangan Irfan laju ke pipi Rozita.Saat itu baru dia sedar yang mana kaca dan yang mana permata.

"Qi..Bangun sayang..Qi abang minta ampun sayang..Abang tahu abang banyak menyusahkan Qi.Qi...Bangun sayang.."Hati Irfan mula berdegup kencang.Dia mendekatkan telinganya ke dada Qiara namun hampa kerana tiada sembarang denyutan kedengaran."Qi bangun!!!Qiara!!!!"Irfan memeluk erat tubuh isterinya disaat itu dia merasakan satu kehilangan.
"Mengapah saat aku menyedari kesilapanku, engkau hilangkan permata yang tak ternilai harganya daripada hidupku Ya Allah?"Tangisan Irfan semakin kuat namun kali ini tiada disisi kecuali sekujur tubuh milik Qiara yang masih lagi menemani walaupun rohnya telah kembali kepangkuan Illahi.

"Demi cintaku padamu ku serahkan jiwa dan ragaku...abang"

2009-06-23T00:25:00.004+08:00

The Salty Coffee

He met her at a party. She was so outstanding, many guys chasing after her, while he was so normal, nobody paid attention to him.
At the end of the party, he invited her to have coffee with him, she was surprised but due to being polite, she promised. They sat in a nice coffee shop, he was too nervous to say anything, she felt uncomfortable, and she thought to herself, "Please, let me go home..."
Suddenly he asked the waiter, "Would you please give me some salt? I'd like to put it in my coffee." Everybody stared at him, so strange! His face turned red but still, he put the salt in his coffee and drank it. She asked him curiously, "Why you have this hobby?" He replied, "When I was a little boy, I lived near the sea, I liked playing in the sea, I could feel the taste of the sea, just like the taste of the salty coffee. Now every time I have the salty coffee, I always think of my childhood, think of my hometown, I miss my hometown so much, I miss my parents who are still living there." While saying that tears filled his eyes. She was deeply touched. That's his true feeling, from the bottom of his heart. A man who can tell out his homesickness, he must be a man who loves home, cares about home, has responsibility of home...

Then she also started to speak, spoke about her faraway hometown, her childhood, her family.
That was a really nice talk, also a beautiful beginning of their story. They continued to date. She found that actually he was a man who meets all her demands; he had tolerance, was kind hearted, warm, careful. He was such a good person but she almost missed him! Thanks to his salty coffee!

Then the story was just like every beautiful love story, the princess married to the prince, and then they were living the happy life... And, every time she made coffee for him, she put some salt in the coffee, as she knew that's the way he liked it.
After 40 years, he passed away, left her a letter which said, "My dearest, please forgive me, forgive my whole life's lie. This was the only lie I said to you---the salty coffee. Remember the first time we dated? I was so nervous at that time, actually I wanted some sugar, but I said salt. It was hard for me to change so I just went ahead. I never thought that could be the start of our communication! I tried to tell you the truth many times in my life, but I was too afraid to do that, as I have promised not to lie to you for anything...

Now I'm dying, I afraid of nothing so I tell you the truth, I don't like the salty coffee, what a strange bad taste... But I have had the salty coffee for my whole life! Since I knew you, I never feel sorry for anything I do for you. Having you with me is my biggest happiness for my whole life. If I can live for the second time, still want to know you and have you for my whole life, even though I have to drink the salty coffee again."
Her tears made the letter totally wet. Someday, someone asked her, "What's the taste of salty coffee?" She replied, "It's sweet."

2009-06-22T20:19:00.002+08:00

Ignore the tagboard saying about marriage. Its like ??? i dun even get what my sis trying to say.. Anyway thanks for tagging OKAY? Lol~~~~

Baby Bangaus fever getting worst and and he have to go to the sick bay. "sick bay?" The last time i heard about it when i was in primary school or can i say early secondary school. Ape2 la kan..Just that i pity him cuz he couldnt focus on his study. Cepat2 sembuh okay dear.. And now bile lagi aku nak dpt pay..Penat menunggu..

Okay bye aku nak mkn durian.
hee~~~
-wawa-

2009-06-22T00:33:00.005+08:00

Dont you think she's CUTE?!!

Abang I so need a hug from you right now..Shessh.

I miss you though we already met.

2009-06-21T18:43:00.004+08:00

My Hairstylist My Baby

Sayang yesterday i had so much fun with you, your sis & brother-in law and your cute niece at east coast park.. It was awesome Abang..I'm glad they accept me for who i am.I promise to be there always.And dear thanks again for the Brownie you bought for me and we shared it together.We sure going to have a proper date soon ok dear?

And and today i enjoyed another day with you. The safety ride was a blast with so many bikes and design teams around..What matters to me the most is you who often there to be by myside. I LOVE YOU ABANG!

2009-06-20T01:10:00.003+08:00

Its hard to utter in words.Its even hard for me to build a phrase.No matter how hard I tried, it doesnt seem to work on you. However after years had past when we go through the obstacles together and face the reality, i realise one thing. God created human in a very different actions and characters. None were made similar. If it does look like twin it still wont be the same. Especially the thoughts of each human being.
Thus i realise God made you to be someone who had difficulty in controlling your own tamper however he created you with another character. He made you to be someone who knows what responsibilty means. Not all understand what it really means. Your age cant define your characteristic neither will your appearance nor your height will. Whenever I sat by your side I would feel secured.
I made a decision myself in loving you and if one day you had ask me to go I'll say "No" in a polite way. Even if I get to find another man for myself, it wont be the same like you. It wont have the same characteristic like you did.
Though we spend mostly half of our day quarreling, I still thank God for making another half of our day to be so beautiful. Though we spend the rest of our day with anger and hatred I still thank God for making another day for us to realise our mistakes and forgive each other for the mistakes made.
And now I realise the happiness you gave to me which I had abondoned it long enough and here I am, still holding on strongly the relationship that gone this far. The mistakes we made had already past and I wished to begin it with a new chapter.I LOVE YOU SAYANG!

2009-06-19T12:37:00.005+08:00

Its already 12.37p.m tapi aku maseh lom mandi lagi..Apenye anak dara tak mandi2 lagi..Mom kept nagging suro kemas bilik.."yes madam i'll ok" *sigh*

Baby Bangaus gone to work, Dearest Bell tak tau da bgn ke lom, Lina pon tak msg..Haix..Aku bored...

How about we talk about yesterday?*DANG!!*Meet Baby Bangaus under my blok and headed to the nearest coffeshop to have our dinner..Or should i call it supper?Tak tau la...mane2 aje la okay..Baby Bangaus ordered Bee Hoon Hongkong and i ordered Nasi Ayam..Nasi die kan da mcm tak sedap!!!BLUEK!!!!I couldnt finish up the food cuz argh..tak tau ape nak ckp paham2 je la...Done with the meal..we headed back to my house cuz aku kena MASAK NASI dulu den baru boleh gi JURONG HILL...(sigh)

Baby Bangaus bring me to Jurong Hill and dgn semangatnye die nak tunjok tempat keje die..

I was wondering "mane la bole nmpk sayang oi!!!Brape byk factory pat situ.." Tapi kan si Baby Bangaus ni degil sgt2..Da la tak nmpk jauh nak step tunjokkan org...Bangau KAN!!!So we sat down and aku pon mcm biase ckp "abang nak geli2"Ler step manje(not) aku mmg manje pon..

Suddenly

=Baby Bangaus ckp "Die mesti tgk crite wujud 2.5 seram gile" (okay topic lari,takpe aku layan kan.)

=Me "ye ke seram?"

=Baby Bangaus" tak seram pon.."

=Me" .___.

=Baby Bangaus"okay la seram jgk."

=Me ".___."(ape die merepek)

Baby Bangaus start his story...

"dorg tak buat mcm wujud 2 dorg now pergi carik hantu pat indonesia..dorg ckp ade satu pokok panjang ni.."

I was laughing and i interupt his story "pokok panjang?bkn tinggi ehk?"

=Baby Bangaus " .___. okay tinggi."

=Me " =) "

Continue with his story

"pokok tinggi tu dorg nak bakar nak tumbangkan pon tak boleh.Den ade tibe2 kena sampuk"

i interupted lagi smpi Baby Bangaus geram hahaha.."sape yang kena sampuk?"

=Baby Bangaus "Takkan lipas plak mestila org kan."

=Me "tau la org..crew member die ke yang kena sampuk?"

=Baby Bangaus "aah" (with his uninterested face)

He continue...

"dorg kluarkan benda tu pki kain "kafan" and..."

Aku interupt lagi "yang colour putih tu kan?"

=Baby Bangaus "tak la colour coklat!!!"

=Me "hahaa.. ade dorg pki kain batik pe..."

= Baby Bangaus "yela tu.."

Den Baby Bangaus pon start buat suare klakar seram...(imitate the person tapi tak seram langsung..)Lol..

after that Baby Bangaus ckp die tgk smpi situ je..Ler..boringnye...hahaha..

Before headed back home Baby Bangaus maseh lagi nak tunjokkan tempat keje die..

= Baby Bangaus "die nmpk yang tmpt ade api tu.(pointing at the directions where there is so many light)

=Me"mane?"

=Baby Bangaus "alah yang tu la.."

=Me"tukan sume lampu mane ade api..."

=Baby Bangaus"ehk?takde api ehk..hee.."

I was laughing out loud..Tak betol la matair aku sorg ni kan...

Reached home about 11 and texted Baby Bangaus...He was being so sweet to me, and i really appreciate it..Thank you sayang..

okay la aku nak mandi.

bye!

p/s:I'm so in love with you

2009-06-18T18:51:00.002+08:00

-Dance practice was cancelled.(aku stress now cuz sat will be my performance)

-Miss My Baby Bangaus.(tak confirm meet ke tak.)

-When will i get my pay?Next week?Cepat2 uh..Aku nak beli handphone baru.

-My phone give me a headache..(sigh.)

-I need cash soon so i can go shopping with dearest bell..

-Sayang when are we going to have another proper date??(Bile kite da kaye!)

-Rotting at home sambil2 tgk youtube.. Its good that they put up a make-up tutorial..

you girls should watch..Its nicely done by Michelle Phan.

-And aku takde keje tgk crite Suzana...Time dulu seram sekarang da tak..

-okay bye.

2009-06-16T17:20:00.002+08:00

Aku sayang Sahabat & Girlfriends aku plus My Baby Bangaus..Sayang sgt2 oi!!!!!!!!!!

I want my pay soon okay!!!!!!!sorry tak update cuz busy sgt2 with the mural painting..PENAT GILE OI!!!!Thanks to all the artist(painter)You Guys are good HELPER!!!Promise aku tak potong gaji korg hahaha...Yesterday was awesome cuz Dearest Bell & Lina help out with the scrubing..Kite da mcm mina cleaner pat bwh blok...Bangau tol..But best jgk uh cuz kite dapat main air..Kesian Elias kindergarten sebab kena byr bill..Jgn mrh okay..hee..

My life is fucking AWESOME this month...

Today had my dance practice..Penat oi..

Okay la will update soon...Now nak sambong gossip with Dearest Bell & Lina...

Dosa Dosa Dosa.....hee...

The PAINTER

-Ayie (the kecoh)

-Zul (the selenge)

-Bell (the speaker)

-Arin (the slamber)

-Lan (the step rajin)

-Nisa (the pembuli)

-Nad (the base speaker)

-Sya (the belo)

I LOVE YOU ALL!!!SEE YA SOON!!!ESCAPE AND SHEESHA OKAY!!!=)

-wawa-

2009-05-23T12:15:00.002+08:00

SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!

THAT FUCKING NYONYA IS A FULL-TIME BITCH!!!

I AINT KIDDING!!!!

I HATE MY DAY.

FUCK!!!!!!!

2009-05-15T00:35:00.000+08:00

I'm sure going to miss my lappy..---shessh---sis will be using this till end of the month...for work thingy...hmm forget about it..

Meet Baby Bangaus and Zul...Pity them cuz they were stuck in the rain..---alalala----sit at 945 and start crapping about many thing..Zul makin lame makin miang..Whatever la bapok..hee..skit2 psl Lina..Gatal..

Head to Jp and had our brunch.Half Chicken and share together..Yummy....sedap tol..Baby Bangaus wen back to have a nap..Zul and I headed to library and read books(only me not zul)Lol..Stayed in the library till 7 and walk to Baby Bangaus block..Zul perangai tak perlu okay main cubit2...Perangai Setan.. .___.

Accompany Baby Bangaus to work blah blah blah reached home at 11.50p.m wait for him to msg while having some conversation..A sad conversation i could say.Ntah la i hope things might be going on smoothly for her...Insya-allah..

-I love playing wheel of fortune with Baby Bangaus & Zul (and aku selalu dapat BANKRUPT!)

-Going Nafa tomorrow with Lina..

-I miss Dearest Bell with her perangai setan!

-I so miss my darlas okay???

-I hate working with the nyonya..fuck!

bye.

2009-05-13T15:28:00.003+08:00

Like fuck?*&$^^&~~~lalala..

Yesterday was superb!!Though never meet dearest Bell..asik dgn Anip je..lallala..BOOO!!!Aku pon ngan ayie la!!!!!!!!Lol...random sia..When to polyclinic...Baby Bangaus mcm paham nak gi jumpe doctor..LECEH!!!hahah...Reached Poly and took the lift up to level 2 and went the lift open it was PACKED!!Like $&^*&!!!Baby Bangaus have to fill in the form and stuff and aku da mcm ZZZZzzzzZZ!!Lembab tol...Nie sume psl FlU thingy la...=( Wait for his number and lalalal to room 12 and wait again...Lol..Kutok2 Bangla sebab Bangla cute sgt(NOT) die pki mask da mcm murderer..Hahahah..kkekeke siot..Rambot da la macho..Like office bOY!!Pegi poly pon nak handsome2...Baby Bangaus start crapping..Bbl sume benda yang merepek2...Okay after that wen to eat at LATIFAH NASI PADANG!SEDAP OI!!!hahah...

Headed to Bestway Building to send Kak Ckin cheque den meet zul and lina at B.G...On our way to B.G it was raining heavily..Both me and Baby Bangaus have to wait at the busstop..For about 20 min gitula..(aku sempat tdo..hahha)

Meet both of them and head to little guilein and play some stupid games...Lina perangai tak perlu okay..It was hillarious cuz Lina was so SELENGE and Zul totally lost his man character..DA MCM NAK BRUBAH JADI BAPOK...Zul love to cubit2 aku..Okay crap..sejak tdo with Baby Bangaus...Ape agaknye dorg da buat..Shess..hahaha..i couldnt imagine...hahaha..sia uh wawa..

Tick Tock Tick Tock time flies so fast when all you know is LAUGHING...Accompany Baby Bangaus to send letters and on our way to the place i saw beautiful houses..BESAR SIOT.. knew its common but what inside the house was totally WOW!!!Ade yang nmpk cam hotel.its sweet..I was talking to myself and Baby Bangaus was talking to himself..Both of us were to talking to ourselves..Crap...

Reached home at 11.15p.m and rest for awhile before go to my sweet dream sweet island..PENAT Oi!!12hrs of outing..Sheessh..Overall i felt satisfied..

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Today i should be working tapi yang buat aku mengamok keje aku postpone NEXT WEEK..Baby Bangaus and i already reached iluma and i already bought my food for lunch!!!!!SETAN UH!!!!!Lucky Baby Bangaus did not leave me alone..Sayang die...

However we just make our way to clementi and meet dearest Bell since she was sick..Rindu anip la tu..haha...mcm paham uh...Mkn pat bwh block cuz i asked Dearest Bell to bring down her bowl..hahah..After mugging my noodles we headed to Latifah like "AGAIN" and eat "AGAIN"hahaha..Da mengamok lapar la...

After eating Baby Bangaus headed back home cuz he needs some rest before working. Left the two of us so i followed Dearest Bell back home and start blogging right now..The funny part my 7 fingers we leave naked and only 3 fingers were coloured..Perangai SETAN uh Bell!!!!We started webcaming and do stupid stuff..~~~~Lalala~~~~

"Bell baju tak perlu ehk..Baju time dulu2 sia..Clementi primarynye baju aku kena pakai..Takpe CUTE JUGAK!!!hahah"And now Dearest bell called Lina and bbl benda merepek..Hahaha..Takde keje uh bdk step sakit ni...and now she press2 her face dont know what she's doing okay la...Both of us wanted to sleep..NGANTOK sgt2..

~~~~~~~shessh!!!~~~~~~

Bye.

-I Hate that NYONYA!

-I need cash please!!!

-Dearest Bell perangai SETAN!

-Baby Bangaus pon perangai tak betol.

-Zul da jadi lembut!!~~~~hahahahah~~~~

-Lina makin mentel jgk hahahahahah...~~~lalalal~~~

-I so hate my hair!!!NOW!!!

-Okay aku da update.=)

2009-05-10T23:51:00.004+08:00

Not dead still alive.Hi!

Yesterday our relationship turn a month older.=)

An awesome day appears yesterday.Had a nice conversation with Baby Bangaus at West Coast Park.At last we had a talk though its not fully a conversation talk cuz Baby Bangaus was ~~~~ Haix..But i still enjoyed my day..Look at the sea and talk about Mas Selamat Escape/Caught.Hmm..Had some Mc Flurry. Indulge..Lol~~~

After our talk we walk to Mac and have a medium coke...MKN JE!hahha...Kutok2 org...Okay kite tau kite jahat...Alah maen2 je bukan tol2.

After tat Nisa Darla text me about Kuda Kepang...So =)!!!okay crap....lalla...wen to teh tarik(nie pat tak berape suke..adelah sebab2 yang tertentu..)We had a drink again..Like duh!Both of us were still hungry actually but tak jadi mkn save duit oi!!!hahahah...Ice Longan and Lime drink..Lepas tu did some stupid stuff..Invent some new drink...SEDAP-NOT!!!hahah...maen telan je..Okay tau gile...hahha

Bought Kue Teow for his sis den head to Arin's block to watch Kuda Kepang..Ramai jgk uh yang kite kenal tapi not really close...Tak close langsong..hahahha..Performance rating 5/10 for the first one uh.Actually while waiting for maghrib to end(tak sembahyang ke?haha)Sit wit Baby Bangaus and kite bbl psl adelah org nie..haha..Den saw one of this small cute fat girl(consider about it at the first sight)She dance like the way those kuda kepang people dance BUT da mcm jawa plus hip-hop..Okay Baby bangaus the one who noticed about the girl..We feels like going to the middle and start the show seh!!!LAME OI...Not really after maghrib but more den tat..So we continued chatting.hee~~~Nampak org tongek pon boleh ketawa and kutok..tak betol uh kite..And there's one part whereby bontot sayangku gatal and with his kaki tempang die bgn sembunyik pat blakang tembok and GAROK!!!hahah...Kelakar oi..But bile malam it was fun..Ade yang cute main bola kekek uh...It was hillarious uh..K.la and Abang pipit came...Had a good view of it..

~~~~Lepas da habis we headed to K.la house..Chill den back home..

Err not to forget saw Aza..Okay aku tak sommbong..Kau tu sombong oi!!!!hahaha..His cool hair GONE!!!lol...But overall its still okay uh....Ape2 meet lagi okay...

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Today not working...Siak tol...Hope nothing happen on wednesday..PLEASE DONT NAG!!!Later aku scotch tape mulot nyonya tu...hee!!!!!!Jgn mrh...Did not meet Baby Bangaus...~~~sad~~~ler...mcm real..hahhah...

Watch kuda kepang..Fida's group..It was awesome..Ade satu org ni kan always steal people drink..HAhahaha...Sekejap2 Sprite,Peach tea,Bubble tea and so on..Cute uh perangai setan dalam badan die..haus la tu...hahahah..

Before the perforamance ended ade satu budak yang tgh jadi ni setan die taknak kluar...Kesian seh...Haix...It took them 1hr to settle up everything....The boy came towards our place with his mouth wide open...Tak seram uh sebab kite ni KPO..hahah...Got to know the thing was lock up in his body..Die da meracau...And sume org kpo2 tgk jgk...FREE SHOW!!!!GOOD ONE!!hahah..

Fida's mom help out with the ceremony thingy..Pon susah jgk nak kluar..With the help from the Tok Guru's they manage to let it out..At Last!Phew!!!kesian tgk budak tu merana..

To Lina kau jgn jealous ehk kwn kakak aku Abang Zaini ade..Die tu laki org oi..hahaha...Kau suke salah org la...Konon muke cam Faleq..BOO~~~

Back home with aisham...and celebrate MOTHER's Day!!!I LOVE YOU MOM!!!SAYANG DIE!!!hahah...

Da la nak sleep nanti kena marah..

Bye!

-I miss Dearest Bell/Lina/Lyna/Yani(bile nak luar lagi?)

-I misses Baby Bangaus..(Jgn Tipu lagi PLEASE?)

-Baby Bangaus hides his legs under the helmet.Cute pe?Lol!

2009-05-08T14:25:00.002+08:00

Was it my fault for being sensitives?For being paranoid today?Not just today but many other days that already past?Am i at fault for all the plan i made were messed up?All i know is to meet you and meeting you for only 3hours a day.Was it enough for us?For both of us?When we spend every 10min arguing about stuff when we spend another 2hr 15 min sending letters.Was it enough for us to speak what we've gone through and what holding us back most of the time?No its never been enough.Its never been.

The same thing happen the next day.Its bore me and i guess it should bore you as well.Our relationship is drowning day by day not about the love but the lack of communication which apart us for being there for each other.Am i still at fault for being sensitives when you knew that my little heart were broken into pieces.When you can see the frowning faces of mine.When my only plan keep changing and there's no hours or even minute for us to sit and talk about our feelings, our future or even our life.Share our stuff only through phone and messages when i need from you is a hug.A warm hug from you.But where has it gone to?

Even if i share you might look at me in uninterested way.Am i at fault for noticing every reaction of yours?Hoping that you would support me and understand my way of thinking.Its screwed up everything.Especially when you gets tired easily and even get mad easily for every small arguement we made.Am i at fault if i told you that i'm totally upset.Its not a lie.

Do you know it hurt me so much when you say "I cant" "I dont know" "No need" "Next time" when you actually knew there's never been "NEXT TIME" for us.For both of us.Forget about everything which i wished for.I will stop hopping for something.Even miracle wont happen easily.Am i at fault for all this disturbance? I dont think so.

Bye.

2009-05-06T23:11:00.002+08:00

I'm totally upset with him today..It was okay when we meet.Perfectly okay..We even enjoyed ourselves sending letters as it is part of his work from now on.Go to Pasir Panjang Hill, Commonwealth Ave West, Pending, Cck Crescent and Toh yi.Everything was fine.But things change wen we reached my block..He said something, i would not say it here but that word hurt me so much..Really really much.

I'm not lying, maybe its just a normal word but i hate it okay..=(

Haix biarlah aku da penat uh asik gadoh2...Baik Gadoh Baik Gadoh..Just hope things will still standing on strongly.Amin..Da la malas nak type panjang2..Makin sakit hati and makin sedih..

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-I HATE MY NAILS!!!!ITS BORING!!!

-NO CASH!!SO I NEED IT!!

-Takde orang ke nak pujok aku!!!Haix.~~~~

-Okay BYE!

2009-05-05T23:24:00.004+08:00

-Life is Great

-Baby Bangaus own a bike =)

-He fetched me now and den~~~heeee

-Congrats tu Lina for getting a job at my place~~~Muke kau lagi.hahah!!!
-Bell sayang kau fikir2 ehk dgn bdk tu..

-Thanks to Dearest Bell and Anip for the surprise 'POP' up at my workplace..I'm GRATIFIED =)
-To my DARLING (Nisa,Isya,Nutt,Shyda) Aku rindu korg okay!

-Working is fun.Okay aku da maafkan nyonya tu...hahah..Jahat Sia!!!

-I'm still perfectly in Love with Baby Bangaus. SUMPAH!!

-I need cash please!!

-Sedih uh cannot watch kude kepang this sun!!@&^9*

Ape lagi ehk?Ntah la...Haix,i'm confused actually..Takde pape la okay...I'm fine.heee~~~~Baby Bangaus please dont change yourself okay..And ape ehk?haiyo tak tau la nak type ape....Forget it..Bodohnye internet!!!!Always disconnect!!!=( Da malam ni nak tdo...Good Night!!!

2009-05-01T00:09:00.005+08:00

Sakit seh HATI!!!!Dapat keje den manager mcm SIAK!!!!Cannot accept it uh...haix~~~I texted my supervisor since i thought of earning extra money cuz ade performance pat Yew Tee ingat nak joget...But i told her that i got a family feast to attend and thought of changing shift so that i could be back early...However i was fucking upset with the reply."Kent said cannot.So your shift will be still in the afternoon.." Bodohnye nyonya aku stakat part time pe lain la full time...Da la bbl org putih ntah hape2...Satu brg pon aku tak paham...I dont mean any harm uh..If i'm a full timer i dont mind cuz its my job tapi ni aku stakat part time oi~~~~Cam nak pekik siot aku...

Dont mean to exagerate saje nak tunjokkan protest!!!!~~~~~HAHAHAHA~~~~

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Just now meet Nisa Darla and went to Elias kindergaten for something to be discuss...Mural Painting la..Planned some stuff with her and after that i realise that my schedule is pack...Rabak pe...Byk benda oi nak kena buat...Mampos tak nak..haisss~~~~After the meeting wen to Teh Tarik dpn Hua Yi sec and have some drink...Mcm paham kan chill pat kedai kopi..Hurhurhurhur..Nisa Darla cancelled her meeting with her Bf sebabnye Bf die busy with the DOTA Games..Aku tak tau ape game tu...Nisa yang ckp uh...Game Freak uh...=)

Took 99 and drop of near Gek Poh and bought some snacks lepas tu gi chill bwh blok..(DA MCM MINAH BWH BLOK)hehehe..stop it ehk!Ingat ade kude kepang cuz one of the house bukak lagu kude kepang kuat2...Time maghrib plaknye...Okay tak nak ckp byk we just sit and have some chat about stuff..Kude Kepang la Nafa la Perangai org2 sekarang la and Agama..Okay fine we might be a little weird to talk about stuff under the void deck but who cares?lol~~~~~~Make a move around 8.30p.m to meet Baby Bangaus for awhile and baliknye aku beli SATAY..hahah..Crap~~~

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Now ade some prob with Baby Bangaus takpelah things will get better one day..Hope so..Amin...
And Lina kau nak ikot tak sok gi tgk kude kepang??Sape2 yang minat turon uh pat Jurong west st 71 blok 747 after 2..Okay??Aku galak kan tgk je sebab best..Tapi jgn msk tau..Cuz shirik...hehehehe....=)

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I miss dearest Bell....Busy ngan Anip kot..huhauhauahua...Jet Aime ler konon..hahah~~~~
Lina pon dgn Anip....hahaha...Konon cool uh korg dpt lelaki name same..jgn tertukar sudah ehk..Tapi akunye Ayie lagi handsome.Lol..Takde kena mengena.Random sia.

Okay bye.

2009-04-30T00:44:00.002+08:00

Supposingly i should be sleeping by now cuz Baby Bangaus text me and said "Sayang jgn tdo lmbt2 okay...Abang sakit perot.." Alah keciannye..hahahah..tulah byk mkn sgt...

I just want to summarise my Tuesday & Wednesday happy moment..

Tuesday i had a great day with my Dearest Bell, Lina, Lyna (confuse?ok there's two lina actually.Tak tau camne nak panggil)and Yani too.Its like a girl outing..we had fun gossiping about others..Ala perempuan katekan..Not really gossiping tapi bbl je..Hahaha ~~~ya rite wawa!!Meet Baby Bangaus at bugis sebab die nak sgt beli baju bunga2..Suro tanam bunga tak nak..lol..Wawa start crapping lagi..biase la da malam kan...Aku ngantok actually...hahha...After Baby Bangaus bought his stuff, he went back home and kite perempuan pon chill one place...Stop it seh bile nmpk KAKAK2 KoNONNYE la kan..okay fine muke kite kan cute lagi WHATEVER la..malas nak lyn org cam gitu...hmm..

After chilling we headed back home..actually the four of us after Yani had left we talk about one particular person..tak nak blng uh name die..Tak baik.haha~~~Mcm2 kite bbl..I mean that person totally change and buat ramai org tak suke..tak tau lah kenape..takde keje kot..~~lalalala~~~..

Back home and go to my Lalala land..Tak mandi lagi..REASON:PENAT...lol...

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And today rotting at home till 3 plus den meet Baby Bangaus he bought addidas wallet and its super COOL..=) Go mkn at koufu and after that chill one place bbl2...Yang bestnye kan Baby Bangaus today was so SLENGE....Bbl yg bkn2 hahah..salah mkn obat kot...Random seh si Jambul ni..hauhauhauhau..Okay aku jahat...Abang jgn mrh okay...

Ade ke Baby Bangaus pronounce O$P$ as OFFICE?Tak btol laki aku sorg nie...Laki?hahha..*BLUSHING*

Lepas da bbl benda merepek we headed back home..time jalan pon die buat benda merepek...i couldnt stop laughing...Da la mcm paham dgr lagu abeh ckp die da dgr lame...Ape2la Abang ku ehk...Mcm nak cepuk2 muke die tau...Back home and teach my niece her english spelling habis kena mrh rabak2....Peduli ape..hahah...

And now just reading Archie's Comic Book..Bored to the max sia!!!!Haiz~~~~Baby Bangaus sakit perot aku sakit Kaki....Byk sgt jln this few days..So time to stay at home..Tapi bile ehk?Da la nak sleep..nanti kena mrh...

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Anyway Bell meeting me this Fri skejap je tapinye...

So sape nak teman wawa watch kuda kepang pat Gek Poh?Tell me okay..

Sok ade meeting..haix...Keluar lagi..

Okay bye..Sape Sayang Wawa?Takde org nak ckp ke...hmm..Okay fine...aku tak btol...Sorry for the unappropriate post...Type a better one soon i guess..hee..~~~~

2009-04-27T15:07:00.002+08:00

First of all aku nak ckp THANK YOU with my sayang. Saifuddin for fetching me okay..It was so touched that you gave me a SURPRISE!ape tak nye..we were quarrelling for the past three days. and everything seem to be so wrong.Lagi2 bile semalam he said that his not playing soccer BUT yet HE DID!!!i was so UPSET!!!Lepas tu takpe die msg and said "You go and find a new guy la wa.."SEDIH TAU!!!So i off my phone and start working.Shessh.

Da la keluar tak msg.. Org pat sini penat2 keje but yet he go somewhere without even care to msg me..Lepas tu msg yang bkn2!!Haix..Grrr..Feel like smacking his JAMBUL FACE!

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Tapi kan when he realise that he did something bad, he came to my work and fetch me..Okay thats really sweet tau..Because he suddenly pop out infront the entrance at my work place and whistle..Aku ni kan mcm bdk kpo nak tgk jgk sape yg whistle...BKN NAK GATAL OKAY cume nak tgk2 je.hahaha..ya rite wawa start craping again.!!and lucky me it was Baby Bangaus.Kalo tak MATI LIAO!!!hahaha..

He came by with two helmets on his hand..HAPPY GILE OI!!!Because he never wants to fetch me back from work..NEVER!=( But he did!!!WEEE!!!!!Sayang Die..That wat makes me so HAPPY yesterday..I mean not only yesterday because there were many days which makes me so happy..heee---

End my work at 1030p.m zzZZzZzz...Baby Bangaus bring me to west coast and i bought Bee Hoon Kway Teow Goreng pat kedai mamak..Boleh la tahan..Sedap jgk..Ingat nak Mee Goreng Jawa haizzz...tak dapat uh kedai da tutop..Takpe la next time Baby Bangaus must buy for me..heee----

Tic tok tic tok reached home at 1130p.m ZZzzzzzZZzz...Makan den salin baju okay fine you guys will say eeee BUSOK TAK MANDI...Aku penat sgt2 uh...really...Da la baru baik sakit den kena keje plak tu..What a disaster.. =( But today I already bath TAU!!!heee----So da takde maknenye for Baby Bangaus to say "AYANG TAK MANDI EHK?"Booo....Da wangi da..lalalalal..

Okay la..Tomorrow going to accompany Lina find work...Blah blah blah..So sweet of me!Thank you..!!!LOL~~~Lina say die nak mkn "Puree"ape2 la asalkan kau nak mkn dgn aku okaY!!!hahaha...

And to dearest Bell aku sayang kau tau...Okay Lina aku sayang kau jugak..Amacm?Puas kan....Alahai nanti mrajok plak si Abang kite tu kalo aku tak ckp aku sayang die..Okay I LOVE YOU and ORG SAYANG ABANG!Abeh takde org nak ckp dorg sayang aku ke?Haix.....

okay la bye.

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-I got letter from Cpf and they agree to let me use my sister Cpf money for NAFA.

-my schedule is damn tight for this month.=(

-I'm so BLESSED!!!

2009-04-26T00:41:00.002+08:00

AKU RINDUKAN SAIFUDDIN LA!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PLEASE COME BACK TO ME REAL SOON!!!!

I HATE YOUR WAY NOW!!!!!!!

BUT I LOVE YOU & YES YOU!!!
PLEASE!!!

2009-04-24T20:45:00.003+08:00

okay fine aku baru baik dari DEMAM PANAS!!!start work tomorrow, hope this fever get away!!Shoo!!shoO!!!I hate it okay..

I couldnt meet Baby Bangaus at all and i'm started to miss him so much!!!"Alah amek org la besok alek work..Kalo ayang kena kidnap how?"okay fine aku da start merepek..I'm bored to the max...Msn with dearest bell and know what?She's going to send me to work tomorrow...Confirm korg ckp aku manje..YESH I AM!!so?hahahah..

Jgn tak jadi okay bell?Kau bagi aku harapan tau!!!hahahah..

And now i'm rotting at home doing nothing...Mom didnt nag so much cuz she knew that i'm sick..I love you!!!hahahah..

Have to get ready my clothes for tomorrow takot lmbt..Paham2 la kan PEREMPUAN...it took so long to get ready..Thats the reason guys hate it...

This few days didnt get a chance to be pampered by Baby Bangaus..Abang da tak romantic la!!!!!

Die tak sayang org lagi ke?Ok fine!if i say such things he will say"Ayang nie merepek" ape2 la kan..

What i know i love you okay..

hahaha...

lalalalalala...

Actually there's nothing for me to blog about...Just to kill the boredom that strikes me..Lagipon pon dearest bell ask about my blog..okay aku da update..

Jgn mrh ehk kalo aku type psl kau nie..

Bell actually fell in love with this one guy..For that particular guy..Aku tau kau tak dpt bace blog aku cuz bell taknak bagi add blog aku..hehehe...tapi kan...she likes you..not just like as in like..can i say it LOVE????????pandai2 la kau fikir okay....

Anyway bell kau kate aku gatal?Kau lagi gatal!!!!hahah..

Till here den..Baby Bangaus please fetch me okay!!!kalo tak org tak nak fren!!!Manje nye wawa..TAU!!!whatever...

bye.

2009-04-22T21:59:00.002+08:00

I'm PERFECTLY in LOVE!

And I'm leading a good life right now.

Sayang Die!

Okay fine aku jiwe2..

But who cares?

I Just Love Him Wat..So?

hahaha..

CRap!!!

Okay la..Thanks Sayang For everything..

Everything?

Bole la..

I'm starting work this Sat!!

Tak sabarnye!!!

Lalalala..

Bye!

p/s:sorry for the short post.malas nak type panjang2. =)

2009-04-21T12:20:00.003+08:00

Everything is changing from bad to good and good to AWESOME!!I realise how i really treasure the relationship which still standing on still with my Baby Bangaus.Sayang if you ever drop by my blog and read this, i just want to tell you that No One really i mean No One could ever replace you in my heart.When i thought about it yesterday, i change because i miss the way you're terribly. However i manage to wake up and cure the disturbance which going through my mind. I'm so sorry for being awkward towards you yesterday wen you were so happy telling me tat you had passed your TP and will get your license soon. I'm so glad Abang!!!Dont forget me okay!!!If you do i'll kiss you!!!LOL!!!haha.

Okay today i'll start blogging about happy stuff rather den sadness..No more WAWA!!!!I knew that i'll get my Baby Bangaus soon!!!Real soon!!

He promise me that he'll bring me somewhere..Jgn tipu okay Abang.Ayang wait tau!!
Okay Baby Bangaus just texted me and said "I miss you too.."Itu je ke?Haiyo...Cepat2 blajar jadi romantic org nak jugak!!!hehehe!!!!

Okay lah nak mandi cuz da tghari ni..Busok!!tau..hahaha...Later Baby Bangaus will say "AYANG NI!!!PEMALAS NAK MANDI!"hahaha..I love you hubbY!!!!
-wawa-

2009-04-20T14:45:00.004+08:00

Duniaku Duniamu

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Mungkinkah aku tidak lagi dengan dirimu..Kau kian menjelma
aku disini mahu bertanya.mungkin kah aku tidak lagi berdunia
dengan dirimu."

Kerinduan ini akan terasa jua walau ia hanya tiba buat seketika. Kenangan yang dikongsi bersama walau hanya sementara pasti akan meninggalkan kesan yang amat mendalam pada hati ini. Alunan suaranya yang merdu membuai diri ini dalam kesyaduan. Suaranya dan juga kata-katanya memberi satu harapan.Ia meruntun segala emosi, ia membelai lembut hati yang sunyi. Kebahagiaan ini hadir seketika kerna ia akan pergi berubah arah.. Dalam percintaan harus ada pengorbanan dan pengorbanan yang paling terbesar adalah perpisahan. Semua kenangan yang masih lagi bersisa terpaksa dilupakan. Walaupun kenangan itu adalah kenangan yang paling indah dalam hidupnya.Ia bagaikan mimpi yang datang dan pergi, walau hati ini pasti akan kekosongan sekali lagi namun ia masih lagi ditemani oleh alunan suara yang masih lagi kian menjelma. Memberi senyuman dan memberi kata-kata indah yang sukar dipedengarkan. Pujuk rayunya sungguh berharga malahan perkataan sayang yang sering diungkap tiada tandingnya. Kini aku hidup dalam bahagia mengenang cinta dan kasih sayangnya.
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sorry if its not clear.....

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